learned alot

tml marks the strt of a new journey.. ppl alwaex sae.. its a new yr! move on.. put back all the bad.. take on all the good.. yes! MOVE ON! and i definitely will... in this rather short holiday.. experienced alot.. learned alot.. clap man! frederick seems to haf grown up.. towards the last few wks of hol.. lotsa things happened... realised tt... u mux believe in wad is told to you.. u mux b clear.. wad is ur aim in doin anithing.. cux if u dont.. u will never get wad u wan.. on the other hand.. u will recieve surprises which arnt any good.. i realised tt... wen u tink tt u r gifing alot.. someone out there is doin more than you.. i realise tt.. wen u noe it carnt work out.. its time to let go.. cux if u dont.. and u cling on to it.. u will realise tt not onli u will get hurt.. but also ppl arnd u.. i realise tt.. wen ppl dont wan to do anithing.. u shldnt force him to.. cux u wun wan ppl to force u to do anithing too.. also.. ppl mite get hurt... i realise tt.. i m a selfish kid.. whu dont care bout how ppl feel.. i realise tt i m a idiot whu do things the way i lyk.. without considering the consequences.. i realise tt i m a pile of shit.. not worth a single look.. i realise tt.. protecting others.. mite end up u urself being hurt.. i realise tt wen u try to b nice.. ppl wun allow you to.. i realise tt if i provide a little care to others.. i get reprimanded in return.. i get ignored.. i get mocked at... i realised tt.. i m at a complete lost.. i realised tt... i never made the rite choice.. i realised tt we r drifting further and further apart.. i realised tt... i alwaex think too much.. i realised tt.. i think too highly of myslef.. i arnt tt influencial.. i realised tt.. i m nt as good as what i tot myself to b.. i realised tt.. i m tot to b obliged to do somethings tt i didnt promise on.. i realised tt.. i m sometimes being used and kicked aside... i realised tt... i m too dependant on others.. i realised tt.. if things are meant to b tt way.. u shldnt force it to b otherwise.. jux let it b.. somethings are best left unsaid and undone.. i realised tt.. i m even more lonely than ppl whu seems to b lonely.. i realised tt... no one totally understand me.. no one totally noes wad i realli wan.. i realised tt... in this world.. i seem to b surrounded by mani.. but i m so alone... i realised tt more and more ppl dont lyk me.. i have feelings.. i can feel.. i realised tt.. i m strting to act crazy.. wen i m sad.. i realised tt.. my heart is weak these few daes.. i cant cope wif the continuous news.. i realised tt.. i m a coward.. whu is alwaex afraid.. of him.. i realised tt.. rainbows arnt as beautiful as the past.. mayb cux the colours arnt those of my life.. mayb.. my world is painted black.. i realised tt i realised alot more than wad i have ever realised.. i realised tt.. moving on.. mite b better for me........................................................................................................................

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