stress

stress... i realli dunno if i can do it...
i heard it... mayb its true... mayb a change is needed...
tears... worrying...
confide... no one...
my choice...

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我心真的受伤了

我的心真的受伤了
i didnt expect it to turn out this way.
i tot u will do otherwise.
i tot u will sae something more.
i tot u will do that.
i didnt expect ur response to b so short and straight to the pt.
am i really tt nt worth a 2nd look?
am i really tt worthless in ur eyes?
have i been pondering too much?
pondering things tt only i feel that way?
i m totally hurt.
a scar on my heart tt will nv heal.
i carnt control.
the tears jus kp rolling dwn my eyes.
tears of sadness.
tears of hate.
tears of pain.
tears of worthlessness.
u made me realise how the world sees me.
i finally noe it.
i have been living in my own world.
i have been thinking in my own world.
i mux b the dumbest person ever in this world.
sadness filled every single part of my heart my body my soul.
i m utterly disappointed.

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I WILL DO IT!

I WILL DO IT!
I HOPE I CAN SUSTAIN!

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梦醒了

望出窗外的天空
看见太阳慢慢的升起
梦渐渐的也醒了
终于看透了
好多好多的好想
却陪伴着好多的不可能
好多好多的期望
却陪伴着好多的失落感
我的心累了
灵魂受伤了
好多好多的为什么
大声的呐喊着
却像石头掉到了海底
永远不会有回应
心里变得好空虚
我的心真的受伤了
眼眶充满的伤悲
流成一条河

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headache

oh my gosh. i nearly died in skl yest. terrible headache + fever... the worse thing is i stil haf spa and econs test~ all thanks to jianhong' s panadol tt i barely survived thru... still having a headache nw.. wonder wen will it ever subside... zzz...

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scared~

i m afraid... afraid of even looking into your eyes... this is just so scary... so much so that i cldnt force myself to accept it... i hoped it isnt true.. but i know i must accept the fact... the fact that reality have proven so... i didnt expect myself to be so inncocent... so dumb... i didnt expect myself to not know so much... mayb cux i was always so protected... i am confused.. i am sad... why did this happen to me...


i m stucked... not knowing the choice to made... the various comments... my feelings... my thoughts... when i finally decide to do it... somethihng just happens to pull me back... i dont know what to do... i jus feel like giving everything up... i wanna take a break... spare me... i cannot take it animore... i hope i cld jus go crazy... and not think of anithing animore... i m all alone... to solve all the problems... i dont even noe what i wan now... my mind is exploding...

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