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Wednesday, December 26, 2007

tired

sick. tired. hate.
i dun wanna to...
bring me back...
i m lost...
dunno wad to do...
looking at it pains me...
i regret...
bring me back...

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

my chemical romance

cool man! my chemical romance's concert was damn cool. gosh! the blasting of the music, the sound of the guitar the drums.. its totally cool! nice man! first concert in singapore and i m sure it left a deep impression in all! waha! oh yea.. the ppl out there are really crazy... esp. those who bought the 97bucks tickets.. they are like squeezing and pushing jus to get into the concert hall first.. haha.. so it kinda made crowd control difficult... yea.. had to resort to yelling your lungs out jus to ask them to stop pushing so tt all can go in orderly... kinda crazy bunch of ppl.. but understandable since they paid tt much for the free standing slot.. hehes.. nice show anws.. so its kinda worth it! hahas.. and kee ann saes tt he found like 2 condoms on the floor aft the concert!!! LOLS! yea.. and the ppl there took of their shirts and swing it rnd like nobody's business... haha.. kinda a realli "high" concert~!!!
nice dae working!!! but we didnt get xtra money for staying tt late!!! ARRGH~~~ hahhaas..

Sunday, December 09, 2007

rest~

woo~ its been a packed week? ok... mayb less than a week... hmm... had hockey camp on wed... quite fun... was meant to b a bonding camp and i guess it did work? anws... external hunt was nice.. ran in the rain throughout the whole hunt... mayb it was the rain tt made it more fun? anws.. great effort in planning for the hunt thou... quite cool.. hahas. had loads of fun while running rnd like some mad ppl... LOL
thur~ worked... worked for some international buffet thingy tgt lun simin and many.. hmm.. quite tiring standing dwn there being kinda a waiteR? ahas. its so torturous to see ppl eat while u haven.. LOL... but its kinda easy job for me.. since i onli need to walk arnd and put back utensils, replenish food and stuff.. haha.. though its kinda heavy.. but i guess its ok lahs.. argh.. the worst part of the job is that u muz through away trays and trays of food!!! salmon, chicken, chesse, cakes.................. oh my god~ its kinda sick dng tt.. so didnt eat for dinner that dae.. hahas... but nice!! i m richer by 33 bucks.. diaos...
fri~ worked agn.. helped out at a american band concert? i tink the band is called america or american? carnt realli rem.. its kinda a america classic rock band? somewhat for ppl whu are oldeR? hahahs... its kind of amusing to see uncle and aunties cheering for their idols... stomping the grnd... clapping... hahas. damn funny... LOL... we were even instructed to stop ani of the overenthu aunties/uncles frm dashing dwn to the band.. hahas.. but in the end none of dem did tt lahs.. uncle aunties are more civilised i guesS? hahs.. ooo.. saw tt nj soccer guy at the concert... hahahs. hen's fren i tink.. lol.. i dunno his name but he noes mine.. kinda amusing.. XD
sat~ worked agn~ hahas.. worked at some ulu club or sth... nus econs alumni dinner thingy.. quite fun.. cux u noe almost all the ppl working... waiter job as usual.. abit du lan cux some of the peeps there damn dao.. they tink tt they damn zai or sth~ =.- and gt some cheapo ppl from ch*** damn lame.. the free gift is like some useless cover for notebook or sth~ den they went to take extras frm seats that are empty~~!!! omg... they even aimed for the table pencils used to fill in survey forms lahs.. like wth~ hmm.. although some unhappy things happened due to 2 bitch and a flirtatious ahb*n*n*.. overall its quite a fun dae~ worked till like 1030~ wa~
woots... sun~ initially tot tt todae can go swimming lesson liaos... but sadly it rained + ka's phone batt went flat.. so missed another dae of swimming~ argh... i tink i m getting fatter~
......... working agn nxt wk ........... hahas.. earn more money.. den can buy more things.. diaos..






anws... i realised tt some ppl are realli bastard~ y carnt they shed off their stupid disgusting face? and carnt u use a better tone while replying otherS? u r making everything seem so fucked up~



AND LUN PANG SEH ME~~~~!!! HAHS.. OOO... AND HIS IC PHOTO IS LIKE DAMN CUTE LAHS!!! DUN LOOK LIKE A IC PHOTO... I USED TO TINK TT ALL IC PHOTOS ARE LIKE SHIT.. THOSE DAMN UGLY KIND.. BUT HE PROVED ME WRONG.. HAHS.. KAWAII!!! DIAOS...

Thursday, November 29, 2007

in memorial

"... "As long as you follow someone, you will forever be behind him.", I remember my first mentor telling me. But I soon realized that following someone than improving on it on your own terms wasn't even enough, because it was in someone else's initial direction.

Those that inspire us, who motivate us can be such strong reasons to be like, to follow. But I've learned to identify what makes them strong, learn and try to apply, but move on.

What speaks from yourself, can never be from another person. What impresses you can be the inspiration of another person, but what inspires you comes from moments, situations in life; its what makes you. Nothing like that can ever coincide perfectly with another human being. ..."
-reuben kee-


i've learned alot... recently, i've been following the news on the tragedy tt happened in Cambodia... one that resulted in us losing 5 promising young talented singaporeans... went online to read more... went to their blogs... and i've learned alot.. got inspired, and at the same time, got to see how useless i am... the fact tt i werent able to realise all those... the fact tt i have been living in my own world... in the past, i used to think i haf grown by alot, mentally, physically.. i thought i have matured and am ready to b an independent adult... but now, i realise i m terribly wrong. i am far frm a mature adult. i am still lying in a bed of roses, under the protection of my parents, away from danger, away from fear. i thought i perfectly mastered the art of treating people around me, of judging someone... but i realised i m totally wrong.. i arnt good at those... or should i say i failed in doing all those.. i realised that i have been hurting ppl arnd me... i realised tt i have been shattering people's deam due to my selfishness. how ignorant of me to b tinking tt i m alwaes right and ppl whu differ from my thinking are wrong... i should and i must... grow up... to learn to think right.. to treat ppl right.. to b someone selfness.. more importantly... learn to decide what is right... i have been wasting my time... wasting ppl's time... cux i have never put my heart and soul in anithing.. in the past, now... but not in the future.. i promise i will sort things out... b sure of what i want... going all out for it... not wasting animore time.. not wasting ani other ppl's time.. i promise..

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

sad

Upon seeing the sms... i was totally shocked... one of the 5 who are missing is actually a nj teacher... i rushed to see the newspaper... and realised who he actually is...
hmm.. went to read on the articles reporting on their death etc. its pretty sad... though i dun realli noe tt teacher.. but as i read thru the article.. images of him in school keep flashin through my mind.. the unknown feeling of sadness filled my eyes wif tears..
how sad it is to have someone tt young to leave his family... how sad it is to see someone around u leaving u tt suddenly... is all these part and parcel of life?
such an incident made me think alot... thinking bout how short life mite b... thinking bout how unpredictable it mite b... u never get to know wad happens the next moment.. u never get to noe whu will leave u the very second later.. the feeling of losing.. is so much of a pain... how great will it b if we dont get to lose anithing in life.. yea.. i noe its totally impossible... but... i thought it mite b something realli nice if it ever happens?...
anws... yea.. frm such an unfortunate event.. mayb we get to learn... get to learn tt we mux treasure wad we have now?... or even learn to heed advices?... i dunno...

Saturday, November 24, 2007

..

i tried to... i tot i cld... i told myself to... but as every second passes by... the feeling got stronger... i dunno why... tt feeling... its uncontrollable... i hope... i wish... you will... i dunno why it is so sudden... it jus so happen... argh~!

Sunday, November 18, 2007

bdae

oh my gosh~ oh my gosh~ i tink i haf gained like 17000000kg after 2 daes~ ahas. all thnx to sisters: esther anita frens:yilun keeann weizong bryan simin katrina weiting tiffany weijian shalene hilda kokhao for buying me cakes~ haha... they are damn nice thou~ realli enjoyed them!!! haha.. but i guess tis contradicts wif my resolution... diaos.. hahah...

to sisterssssssssssssssssss:

thanks!!!! thanks for tt splendid dinner!!! haha.. SWEnSEns ROCKS! haha. even haf free ice-cream fr bdae peeps... yea.. so wen its ur turn, rem to visit them.. XD wow.. free ad huh? yep! thnx sis! dinner was great.. but i bet i caused u great bucks.. oops.. haha... bet u need to fast for the next few months.. diaos.. lols..

yep! and thanks 2nd sis for tt great mp4 player!!! love it lots.. damn cool.. haha. it is like super cool tgt wif tt speaker! rocks man!!! thanks!!! but it cost alot too.. haha.. so u shall fast too.. LOL!!!!

to keeann weizong bryan simin katrina weiting tiffany weijian:

thanks guys! a real big thank you man! haha... seriously didnt expect so many of u to appear right outside mos burger.. damn shocked~ so.. kinda nearly cried.. haha.. but strong frederick manage to hold back all those tears.. :) yep! haha. real touched~ the loud bdae song which attracted much attention inside and outside of mos burger.. haha.. thank you~

hmm. the beary bank and tt mug is super duper ultra cute~ haha. as cute as me.. so suits me alot. LOL!!! hahahs.. hope me yilun and keeann can realli save up wif tt bear... i shall strt saving now~ woohoo!!! XD on a saving frenzy. diaos... yep! thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yea.. and keeann~ u made a realli nice poem... haha.. lol.. mayb can make into a song huh? i shall try... :) hahas.. thnx... damn nice! touched touched~

wow! wad a touching 16th nov...

oooo... do u tink such touchin events end un jus a dae? haha. nope!!! i was quite surprised tooo... XD

to tiffany weijian shalene hilda kokhao jianhong:

wooo... the mv rocks.. haha.. cux its my song~ hahaha.. no lahs.. its realli damn nice... hmm.. for those whu went kbox.. yep.. i haf a realli big smile on.. but i m touched to tears deep in... haha.. didnt expect u guys to spend so much tym on tis.. yea.. haha.. 4 daes rite? near full daes somemore.. stayed up till like 1/2 am? haha. thnx man! nice video.. hope i can post tt on blog thou.. so yea~ send me send me~ ahah. mux share gd stuff wif everyone! ahahs. yea~ and looking forward to the "Fahrenheit" Mv tt u guys made~ haha...

ooo... haha.. and needa help tiff and weijian clarify stuff.. on 16th nov.. they didnt stay for the celebration cux they rushed off to shalene's hse to do some touchin up for the video.. omg~ realli touched to hear tt.. haha.. and they stayed up once agn to send the video or sth~ haha.. u guys realli did alot..

haha.. but made me (such a poor boy) spend 15.50 bucks on kbox.. LOL.. haha.. but nevertheless... ITS TOTALLY WORTH IT!~ thanks guys!!!!

to theng tat:

hahaa.. thanks for ur bdae prezzie!!! haha.. i can fulfil my resolution wif tt.. appear wif cool hairstyles everydae!!! thanks!!!

yep! so a touching 17th nov!!!!

haha.. bet lotsa u r damn jealous rite? wad a fortunate guy i m.. to haf celebrations over 2 daes.. kinda like chinese new year.. haha.. jus tt mine is like bout 7 times less~ LOL.. yea.. but.. tis is the BEST bdae i haf ever had in 16 years of my life... thank you guys.. realli dunno wad to sae except for a big thank you!!! but hope u guys can feel that tearing heart of mine.. haha.. nt bcux i m sad.. but tt i m realli touched...

ooo.. yea.. jo! thanks for remembering my bdae aft like 5 years? wow... thanks man!


haha.. yea.. b4 i forget~ pls send me photos guys~ haha... i hope to post all the photos tgt wif the photo of my prezzies like real soon~ wanna show off my great frens and great prezzies.. I GONNA MAKE THE WHOLE WORLD JEALOUS!!! hahaha...


THANK YOU GUYS!!! LOVE YA LOTS!!!





ooo.. yea.. b4 i forget.. haha.. by popular demand.. i mite reveal tiffany and jiawei's faces... LOL... if i manage to get like 20 request through the tagboard? haha... i shall reveal their faces.. hahahahahahhahahaha... hhuuhuhuhuhuhuhu~ lol...


Friday, November 16, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAE TO ME!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME~

HAHA.. so pathetic rite? wishing myself happy birthdae. diaos... woots. thnx for all those whu actualli remembered... realli touched.. hmm.. haha.. thank you man! esp hilda for tt super long message.. haha!! thnx peeps!.. a brand new start of my 17th year... yesh! i will heed ur advice and try nt to b emo for tis 17th year~ but.. kinda hate this number.. makes me feel so old~ haha. time flies~ ok.. shall nt continue jus in case my emo self appears agn.. LOL hmm..

17th year resolution!
1) i shall start eating less and slim dwn!
2) i shall start exercising regularly!
3) i shall start studying hard!
4) i shall use less of the com!
5) i shall cut dwn on my monthly sms!
6) i shall do all my hw on time!
7) i shall b less emo!
8) i shall stay happy as far as possible!
9) i shall control my temper!
10) i shall learn to tink less!
11) i shall learn to b less crazy!
12) i shall b more serious!
13) i shall make more new friends!
14) i shall go for wad i wan!
15) i shall love the ppl arnd me more!
16) i shall treasure wad i haf and nt let ani slip away!
17) i shall treat myself better and love myself more!!! hahas!

woohoo~ 17 resolutions on my 17th bdae! hahaa. cool man! hopefully i can fulfill all those man~! GO GO GO!!!




17th year wish list!!!
1) new MP3
2) PSP
3) new Handphone
4) new figure ( ahahaha.. craps... )
5) new handsome face (hahaha... whu wanna sponsor me for a plastic surgery? LOL!!! craps..)



woohoo~ hope i can save enuff money for the first 3? haha.. but kinda impossible cux i m a poor boy~ haha.. the last 2 shall appear in my dreams~~~ lol!!!








THANKS MUM! WOOTS. thanks for tt lovely birthdae cake~ and those pizzas~ woooooo.. tink i haf gained another 17kg~ hahaha... oh no~~~ fat fat me is here agn~~~ *shoo fats~ shoo~~ shoo~~~* lol.. k. kinda crazy.. hmm.. but i guess its kinda better than emo? hehes.. a pretty gd start huh? :P




wishing me all the best for this 17th year ahead!!! best of luck Frederick!





*mmmm.. yum yum~*

wen my wishes are lighted~

woohoo~ pizza + cheese sticks!~

wanna haf a bite??

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

sick

hais~ haf been falling sick lately... hmm.. mite b due to the poor weather tis month i guesS? hopefully i can recover soon? hahas..

i thought alot but i realised none.. i wish i will soon to come...

Thursday, November 08, 2007

chalet!

wooohooo~! jus came back frm chalet (5-7 nov)... damn cool to haf the first chalet wif s12.. hmm.. the fun aside, this amazing exp shocked me wif ppl sleeping so much and so early.. hahas. anw~ had quite some bit of fun at the chalet... even our dearest ct came and even played truth or dare wif us!! wahaha! went out for midnight trail at pasir ris park... hahs. it was said tt i will scare ppl through the walk.. but.. hmm.. i realli didnt realise tt. hehes. but.. the walk was quite fun.. talking.. and even played at the playground~ hmm... rent a bike the veri nxt dae.. and i wanna sae sorry to kin phang~ haha. made a abrupt turn and end up crashing into his bike.. luckily he was nt injured.. but i m... hah. poor me.. but thanks to kp for trying veri hard to lift such a heavy load up.. haha. thanks to his try tt soften the impact of my fall i guess. hehes. free gym training lehs. nt bad. LOL. anw. it was kinphang's 17 bdae on 7th nov! haha. so actualli bought a cake and celebrated wif him.. he said he was moved to tears but tried hard to prevent himself frm crying~ haha... hmmm.. hehes. yep! so some picturesssss for u guys! ooo. and tiffany is kinda crazy over hotcakes.. =.O diaos~










woots. and my new hockey stick!

Sunday, November 04, 2007

new song!

wahaha! i promised them a song. tadah! here it comes... hmm.. but the sound quality dunno y bcome weird weird de...



credits to weijian for making it into a video clip? haha. lols. hope tiffany and jiawei like it.. XD

Saturday, November 03, 2007

crazy ppl

a bunch of crazy ppl~ hahahaha!!! tot carline wanna 保持形象?

Monday, October 29, 2007

FREELOADER!

wad the fucking hell! i hate to sae this but i fucking hate freeloaders. i noe tt these vulgarities are seriously polluting my blog but i still haf to sae fucking bastards shall jus vanish frm this universe. wads the pt of being smart but good-for- nothing?! mugging is gd but pure muggers are so fucking idiotic. carnt they jus spend a little of their mugging energy on sth else?! at least help urself! c'mon! its nt like u r doin sth for others nw! u r doin it for ur fucking self! hw nice to b sitting there waiting for ppl to spoonfeed u huh?! i dont noe, but recently u jus suddenly seem so disgusting. the sight of u makes me lose all the happiness tt mite b filling me. shuckS! and i seriously dun understand y some ppl can jus comply and still bother helping wen tt person doesnt even want to do sth to salvage the situation! is keeping mum about everything a solution of all problems! i doubt so huh! but everything is gonna come to an end soon... i hope.

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

regrets

i told myself over and over agn that regrets are inevitable in life, hoping i could get over it like real soon. but i realise i cant. everytime i c wad i could haf be in, there is a sudden sadness surging through each and every part of my body.the regret the pain the feeling of having no one to talk to about this. i noe no one can undestand. i noe some will even sae that i crazy or simply ignorant. but i realli wished i had fought for my own wants. whats the point of regretting some mite sae. i dont know for this feeling comes so naturally. kinda beyond my control. i hurt myself but i never got better. life seems to be so aimless now. i dont noe wad i want anymore. i dont know if my choice was right.i no longer have someone whu enlightens me wen i m dwn. i no longer feel wanted. i seem to be floating in the grey area, belonging neither to the black nor the white. i feel left out, i feel despised. the crazy me was sometimes used to cover my sorrows. but i begin to bring me more. i failed my chem consistently but most importantly, i failed my life.

Saturday, October 06, 2007

REViVE!

happy birthdae to blog happy birthdae to blog happy birthdae happy birthdae happy birthdae to blog. LOL. haha. shall celebrate the re-birth of my blog todae. diaos. k. kinda lame. anw. its been a freaking long time since i last post an entry. hahs. so todae shall grant the wish of mani~ hehes. abit byl.


cute? i draw de!!! hahas. abit random...


wa! i got magical powers!

woots. promos jus ended but i guess the more worrying part has jus strted. RESULTS~! ugh. seriously hope tt i can promote + retain all my subjects. hais. i jus carnt imagine wad will happen if i nd to drop one of my subs.. hope god will help me through this exams man! felt so weird after promos. felt like out of a sudden, there is nth for me to do. hahas. too used to the mugging daes before promos i guess? jus cldnt get use to doin nth! how ironic huh? during those daes, i was hoping and praying for this dae to arrive. and wen it actualli did, i felt so empty. hehes.




went for breakfast during chem spa on thurs. which is like 2 daes before? tiff told me that zong and gang are having breakfast at KAP before gng for spa. so i went dwn to KAP with tiff. and guess waD?! we saw no sign of zong!!! so we thought they left and gave them a call. to the greatest shock of my life, they are having breakfast at West Mall's macs. =.- how smart huh tiff? to assume tt Macs = KAP =.- ahas. anw. chem spa was pretty easy.. XD hopefully i dun make ani stupid errors here and there and everything shall b fine.




wooo. got to noe tt CCA is strting on mon. urgh. abit fast huh? i was hoping to be able to rest more. ahahs. i m kinda lag. hmm... cca + pw. woo.. like wad someone said. " the real stress comes after promos." =.- ahhs. thou i kinda disagree. i do have REAL stress during promos. hais. mayb i m jus nt tt smart. promos to me is a big deal. how i wish i can b like some ppl, treating promos like nth. blame no one but myself. for being stupid. anw. shld change the quote to " the stress still lies" sounds better.




argh. OP OP OP OP OP OP!!! OP on mon!!! hope i wun screw up on tt dae. hhes. pray tt everything turns out well. all the way 094~! *oopz. hope i got my grp no. right.*








HAHAHAHAHA!!! HOT STUFF! HOT STUFF! HOT SCANDAL PHOTOS FOR VIEW!!! LELONG LELONG!!!
[nt my fault nt my fault... weijian remind me to post de.]hahs.













guess whu they are! hahas!!!




Sunday, September 02, 2007

looking back

as the melody runs through my ear drums up to b processed in my brain...
memories were brought back to me again...
the smile the laughter were heard once more...
but the sorrow the cries werent spared at all...
many regrets filled my heart my soul...
many i should have accompanying me till old...
i hope i cld go back time to where choice is done...
but i noe i carnt and i noe im left with none...
the many tears roll down my cheeks...
the many sounds made as the clock ticks...
y carnt the hour the minute the second hand...
jus listen to my very command...
i m left alone in the dark with pain...
living regrets back in the rain...

PASS!

our dear frederick proudly passed his silver swimming test todae. hahas. ok lahs. nth great actually. but still. hehes. quite happy to pass. diaos. anws. tio cramp wen helping ppl pick up their clothes frm the bottom of the pool. wa~ totally stunned wen i felt the cramp coming. nearly drowned. damn scary. but to save my face, i didnt dare to alarm anione jus in case the worse scenario ever happen - the lifeguard coming to my resue. ahas. so, with the strong will to live on without having to "throw face" our dear frederick struggled to the side of the pool with one leg! WA~! one leg mans. hahas. but at some pt of time i felt tt i wasnt moving at all. ;P anws. got to reach there safely lahs. was quite thankful that alloysius came to the poolside to grab the clothes frm me. i tink he knew tt i wasnt in the right condition. thanks mans! anws. frederick level up! woohoo~!


shit. i tink i shld strt studying for promos. but looking at those font 12 words jus makes me fall asleep. wld someone pls save me~ :'(

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

i m lost in the woods, not knowing which direction to take. i dare not move forward, fearing tt more trouble will come. i m afraid tt the situation will worsen. neither can i move back... as the sky darkens, the feeling of emptiness seems to haf occuppied my soul. i dont noe wad to do. the onli ting left in my mind is millions of apologies. i m sorry.

Saturday, August 11, 2007

sentosa

its been a freaking tirin dae todae. woke up at rnd 6, rushed all the way dwn to habour front, rching at rnd 645. waited for quite some tym b4 we (hockey team) headed off to sentosa for r-cube. rnd 8-9, strted the 6km race. totally exhausted after the race but energized by the free flow of vitagen, milo and newater. hahs. kinda got a funny feeling towards the end of the dae. shld b due to the finishing of the product after vitagen is sent into my stomach. anw. went for class outing aft the race, which was pretty much the same venue as where r-cube was held. quite a pathetic one thou. onli me lun hen bry jus wj wq leo ys val jw lev went. haha. but it was quite fun. swam across to the small island wif lun and bry. on my way there i was pretty much praying tt i wun drown, cux i m kinda a noob swimmer ehs? but in e end, i managed to rch there safely. hhas. played soccer and stuff, chatted some bit and headed to vivo for lunch/dinner at 3-4? ate carls junior which kinda left my wallet wif a 2 bucks note. bridge a little and headed off for hm. slept a little and went over to my grandpa's place to celebrate his bdae. rched home. dropped dead on bed. hahas. and here i m bloggin bout wad happened one 11th aug 2007. fun-filled unforgettable dae. XD




anw. i still owe lun 5 bucks and his papers. i shall rem to return him on sat. pls constantly remind urself frederick.

Saturday, July 28, 2007

cool

woohoo~! something realli cool happened tis wk. this is kinda the veri first time friendster served its purpose. ok. at least for me? was roaming rnd the website on thur? [ if my memory didnt fail me] and guess waD? i got to find my long lost friends online! hahas. long long friends is pretty much primary skl mates anw. nt pri 6 but pri 2~! we do haf good memory ehs? still got to remember each other thou both parties kinda changed some bit.. hmm.. damn cool rite? hahas. and tadah~! we haf the same resolution for e nxt half of the year~ to mug for promos. i noe it gotta b hard for me.. carnt realli get myself to strt the ball rolling.. but. yea. pretty much of a no choice.. if i choose to b stuck in square one.. i wun b able to retain my 4H2 or worse off... kanna retain~ nononoo~ either or i wld haf to change my class and strt adapting to a totally new environment agn. such dreadful experience is definitely a nono to me~ k.. back to topic. hahhs. yea. i realli cant find another word but to sae tt its cool? ok. mayb i do haf a limit to my vocabulary. oops..
anw.. got super stressed up~!!!! homeworks are streaming in continuously. jus as i complete 1 assignment, 2 came in. jus as i finish question 4 of tutorial, the tchr is rounding up the topic. oh my gosh~! *faints* but i jux cldnt get myself to b glued on e chair and stare at my tutorial 24/7. save me mans! since hen has SMS (Save My Soul) i shall have BLOG ( Boring Life On e Go)... =.-

attn ppl!
hey guys! 4H class outing on 11th aug (saturday) at ____am/pm at SENTOSA! its been ages since we last meet up huh? so, why wait? take up tis rare opportunity and find ur way to SENTOSA on the 11th! cya there! p.s. spam tis mex arnd.

to be filled up wif jucier details at a later date...

Monday, July 23, 2007

...

i realised it isnt tt common after all. mayb its jus the ppl arnd me.. but yea.. overall.. its nt tt common. realised how far i m behind the crowd... dropped into the pit todae aft realisin the mani facts tt i never knew. dropped further in wen the loud voice constantly shouts out my name.. the rain tt came, fell will sorrow and pain.. i tot rain cld wash away my sorrows.. but it done worse.. i arnt gd in anithing in life.. totally not recognised and alwaes a big mile behind.. wen i tried to catch up, the others haf been way further ahead~ the sight of light got dimmer as years passed.. as darkeness sets in.. its wen my heart is dyin.. its wen all hopes are shattered..


the one to b shouted at... never gets to win~


i quit.


[with tears filling the lake with sorrow forming the mountains my soul has flown... to somewhere never known~]

Sunday, July 22, 2007

歌曲叙述了人生

而我生命中的歌

无时无刻在改变

从忧转喜 从喜转忧

生命中的无常 往往被人视为“生活情趣”

但无时无刻的改变 却让我十分厌倦

我无法忍受那急速转变的情感。。。

这一天的高兴让我从地狱升到了天堂

这一天的高兴我从不敢去想。。。

那就像干旱中滴下来的水

对我来说是多么地感动多么的珍贵

那感动得泪水一滴滴的落下。。。

但残酷的人生告诉了我,快乐是短暂的

快乐的时光好似坐捷运,

不管你多么努力的想扑捉那迷人的景色

不管你多么努力想要留住那一刻

你都无能为力。。。

是啊。。。 无能为力。。。

自己以往的不珍惜

造成了现在的遗憾

我的心一天一天的被刀割着

我好害怕那充满裂痕的心破碎。。。

以往的快乐捉不住 但永远存放在记忆。。。

如今的我 了解了花再美也会枯萎。。。

多么的快乐只不过是一瞬间。。。

或许不必太在意那份快乐

因为它并不会长久。。。

人心恶劣如此可怕。。。

一次的不铭记在心。。。

人心的自私如此可增。。。

只顾自己不顾别人。。。

自己快乐而生旁的人痛苦真的比较好吗?

看见他任一步步的踏入火坑

你真能见死不救?就为了自己的利益?

你变了。。。 变了好多。。。

以往的你到了哪里?

还是。。。 以往的你不过带着那纯白的面具?

怀念的是好多好多。。。

往事只能回味。。。

i m alone on the crossroads

Listen lyrics by Beyonce.Listen to the song here in my hearta melody I start but can't completeListen to the sound from deep withinIts only beginning to find releaseOhh the time has come for my dreams to be heardThey will not be pushed aside and turnedInto your own, all 'cause you won't listen[chorus]ListenI am alone at a crossroadsI'm not at home in my own homeAnd I've tried and triedTo say whats on my mindYou should have knownNow I'm done believing youYou don't know what I'm feelingI'm more than whatYou've made of meI followed the voice, you gave to meBut now I've gotta find my ownYou should have listenedThere was someone here insideSomeone I thought had diedSo long agoOh I'm screaming outAnd my dreams will be heardThey will not be pushed Aside or turnedInto your ownAll 'cause you won't listen[chorus]ListenI am alone at a crossroadsI'm not at home in my own homeAnd I've tried and triedTo say whats on my mindYou should have knownNow I'm done believing youYou don't know what I'm feelingI'm more than whatYou've made of meI followed the voice, you gave to meBut now I've gotta find my ownYou should have listenedI don't know where I belongBut I'll be moving onIf you don't, if you won'tListen to the song here in my heartA melody I start, but I will completeNow I am done believing youYou don't know not what I am feelingI'm more than what you've made of meI followed the voice you think you gave to meBut now I got to find my own - my own

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

..

i fell frm the top, seriously hurt and in pain. i tried to recover, tried to climb up agn. but i was pushed down.. i dunno.. dunno whether to try it agn.. tired..








happiness is indeed short...







my worst subject ended up to be the best...








it was jus a sentence... but it did matter...









i didnt find it fun.. but u seemed to b amused by urself.. is it realli tt fun? i m tired even if u r not..








i did.. but u insisted i did not.. but i realli did..










why is it alwaes tt look? i dun understand...









my mouse burst in jian hong's hands.. =.-









i didnt noe how to face it.. i carnt...










y u can i carnt? why...

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

:)

the change made me feel warmth made me feel happy~ thanks to the one whu made the change.. a rare occassion of happiness.. i hope it will last~ i pray it will..













woohoo~ i borrowed lun's gd luck for tml.. return u tml nite! hopefully i can survive thru tml wif u gd luck. lols. haha.

Saturday, June 30, 2007

finally over

wow. its finally over. 4 daes of tests is finally over. 4 nites of intensive mugging is finally over. thou these 4 daes is finally over, there is a much greater disaster awaiting me. in these 4 daes, we took a total of 5 subjects, 10 papers. thou i seriously hope i wun get a u. but i tink i wld. damn man~ exams was really hard. there are some questions where u totally go "huh?!". hahas. but yea. its over. so no pt brooding over it but to move on. but tinking back, its a pity tt i didnt strt of early but end up doin last min stuffs. but tinkin further, even if time were to turn back, i mite nt strt studyin either. hmm. mayb its time to change tis bad habit of mine! strt early like some ppl did. having completed all revisions by the first wk of june holidaes. but it doesnt seem as easy to master the art of keeping ur mind switched on and ur eyes open while u stare at those font 12 words all dae long, does it? i pretty much cldnt study for more than 1 hr at one go.within 1 hr, i definitely will drift off to some other places. pretty bad huh? hahas. but yea. i will strive to master the art. but i still believe life doesnt jus revolve arnd u studying all dae long and doin nth else. seriously cant understand y some ppl can actually rush home straight after school without having to go out socialising or even playing? no offence, but i seriously cant understand how u guys can do it, cux i cant. anw. yea. get a life ya? if life is jus non-stop studying, wont u find life meaninglesS? i dont deny the face tt u do need to study, yea, dont b like me. but apart frm studying, u still need ur rest, u still need ur plae, u still need ur life. :) so.. strt balancing ur life dude! the world is realli big, and ur house is nt the onli place available for visit.
anw... wanna thank all those whu cared once agn. as i haf said, this year is not a smooth sailing year for me. lots of obstacles lying right in front of me. anw, wanna thank those whu realli accompanied me thru this difficult journey of mine. lots of ya sent regards to me, lots of ya actualli even came up to talk to me. i got to learn alot frm u guys got to learn to move on frm u guys. a realli big thank you yea? regarding the prev post. i m sorry to those whu felt affected by the crude words tt i used. at tt pt of time i dun deny tt i do felt a little angry and upset, but ya, everything is over. moving on is the best thing in life mayb? although its pretty hard to do it, but yea, trying is no harm?
hmm. had a talk with some of the ppl outta dere lately, and realised some things gng on. ehs. i dunno lahs. but tis is nt an emo part of my post. i jus wanna sae. isnt the world better if ppl can b more truthful? instead of being so fake? if u kinda sae tt u dun like the person behind her back, den y r u giving her the idea tt u love and cared for her so much? i dun understand this. i dun mean tt wen u hate tt person u cant like sort of talk to her or sth. but caring and loving is more than talking? as in. if u hate tt person how do u show care and love? tts obviously so fake isnt it? i jus find it realli scary. anw. yea. the world isnt perfect. and the existence of such ppl in life is jus another imperfection of life isnt it? wow. i have begin to learn to tink positive huh? hahas.
ooo. tis para is specially dedicated to lun.. i seriously dunno wads wrong wif my blog tt made u got those virus. but yea. so far, other than u, no one else had said anithing bout tis. so.. aha. its pretty much onli u experiencing tis problem.. but anws. realli sorry.. but a piece of advice. cut dwn on watching ur p*** den mayb u will nt get this. haha. jkjk :P

Thursday, June 21, 2007

!

if u fucking dun like my post den fucking close ur eyes and dun come herE!

i lead my life and no matter wad i may feel u haf no rights to comment. so wad if i failed? r u tt perfecT? DARN!

if things r as easy as those few words, u wldnt find ur pea brain tinking of e solution ahead of others.

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

thank you

for those whu realli cared, for those whu realli made an effort. thanks man. i realli need those. thank you. i mite nt haf replied but i hope u noe. its nt tt i dun wan to but i dun noe how. but i sense the concern. so thank you. :)
thru this long journey of life. i learnt alot. seen alot. tis year can b said to b the worst year of my 16 years of life. lotsa downs but little ups. but i learnt alot. realli. i gt to c how childish i used to b. believing in 100% trust, 100% faith, 100% in everything i choose to believe be it people or things. i do nt deny tt i still m chilish now. but i can sae i haf grown up quite some bit. thanks to the ppl arnd whu made me realise how foolish i was. wen we were young. we love short poems. line whereby it goes " good friends are hard to find". simple line with depth. how true it is. true friends indeed are hard to find. in fact. i lost one. and still holding tightly to one. hoping tt being in different schools wun change the relationship btw us. but guys. upon reading this post. i jus wanna sae. no matter how dissappointed u mite b. no matter how lost u mite feel. turn to ur family. in this society, ur family members are the ONLY people u can put ur 100% in. they are those whu will nv betray u. they are those whu will gif u their honest advice. they are those whu will alwaes support u and b by ur side no matter wad may happen. treasure them. hold on to them tightly like u haf never done before. do tis. and u shall never regret.........................

Friday, June 15, 2007

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i dont understand why

Saturday, June 09, 2007

?

ignoring is the best way to avoid troubles.
but it is as gd as escaping from reality.
but reality is always cruel.
so wad are we supposed to do?

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

..

not long ago, someone told me" hey, ur prev post is the best post ever~!". wen asked why, the onli reply was tt its a happy entry. true enough, each and every one of us look forward to the happy daes in life, but sad enough, reality is cruel. someone told me, that regrets are inevitable in life. we carnt possibly live with no regrets, and that we should move on. how i wish i could. in tis veri new year, i haf learned alot frm the ppl arnd me. i used to tink tt i m rather gd at judging someone, but things that happened tis year proved me wrong. as daes past, i m beginning to live in fear, jux bcux i got to c more into certain ppl. i jux cldnt stop tinking how scary it actualli is to haf such ppl arnd me. its jux unbelievable. mayb, i shld haf heed the advice of my seniors back then. to make my own choice at leasT? if i haf done so, things mite haf been different. realli missed the daes camping in the lib wif jon and dan. ahas. those were the daes where time passes by real fast. its onli now, that i understand wad it means wen ppl sae " its the ppl arnd u tt makes up ur life."...

Monday, May 14, 2007

thoughts

Friday, May 11, 2007

OUTING!!!

wooohoo~ had a real gd time todae. played cards like there is no tml.. wooo.. i m e king i m e king!! haha. lols. anw.. hilda has a evil laughter!!! oh my~ how i wish i can post tt laughter on my blog.. ppl whu r feeling down.. go find hilda fr tt evil laugh and u will forget all ur worries!
went for dinner in town.. todae marks the very first time of me stepping into subway. after hearing all the comments from tiffany and kok hao, i imagined food there to b real good. but, its kinda disappointing. the onli thing tt i can taste is the various veggies in e sandwich, and i tink weijian share my sentiments too. haha. woots. but i tink e cookie is damn nice~! ooo.. and carline claims tt if u buy 3 of the cookies u can save 30Cents. lol! she do live up to her name. haha. walked frm far east to heeren aft tt.. on e way there, there is some shiseido fair.. e Mcee walked up to carline and was like trying to fool arnd guessing wads carline's nationality. haha. lol. he even said thailand i tink. anw. kok hao was standing there lookin at dem and the Mcee sorta pushed him aside saeing this is for gals onli. u will never guess wads the free gift. ITS A BOTTLE OF EVIAN WATER! =.- and tt guy made it seem like kok hao is tt cheapo to wanna go fr such sucky free gift. lmao! took neoprints todae~ oh my god! the machine seriously sucks lah! b4 we can actually choose the size of photo tt we want, times is up. so we ended up printing the damn small version~ to tink i look tt good in the photos~ LOL.. so wasted. haha. anw. aft tt we took photo wif tiffany's camera outside the neoprint shop~ super embarrassing. there is freaking lots of ppl passing by lah~ argh~ and weijian is super funny. used my specs to act like a grandfather. not to forget his "uncle" umbrella~ ooo.. went to buy venezia ice cream at taka aft tt. wa~ never buy tt nutty shit man! taste totally like peanut butter. got a little dizzy aft eating half of it. ahas. camped at a corner of taka. ehs. a damn secluded place beside e lift. damn ironic rite? beside e lift but yet secluded. lmao. anw. there are like 5 ppl whu saw us there~ wa~ damn embarrassing. its like sitting on e floor of a high-end shopping centre. felt rather weird. hahas. ooo. hilda is damn funny~ she cldnt finish her ice cream. haha. her BELGIUM chocolate. reminds me of tt $130 shit.dammit. all thanks to tt $3.75 in my edusave acc. damn pathetic. oo. went home real late. even cam whore in e lift of taka. we took the lift frm level 2 all e way up to 18th level jus to take a picture. haha.. reached home at rnd 10? wa~ watched tt fashion thingy show~ damn nice. simply love it! arr~ fun-filled dae man! looking forward to daes ahead wif u guys! rocks on man!








Monday, May 07, 2007

imagine me without you

as tears gather in e eyes...
as the heart starts to bleed...
the surrounding starts to darken...
getting darker every min...
getting darker every sec...
alone in e room...
the past seems to bcome so vivid...
imagine me without you...
all my dreams and hopes are shattered...
i made the wrong choice...
i shldnt have leave them...
leaving none in my life...
i was taught...
taught to heed the advice...
but teachings mite nt b always right...
i miss the A
the B
the E
the H
the N
the O
the S
the T
the 1
the 6...
i miss the past...
where truthful ppl r arnd...
where love is in e air...
i hate e present...
where selfish ppl r arnd...
where ppl arnt true to u...
i shld haf heed the advice...
i shld haf decide for myself...
standing in front of e gate...
tears fall...
there stands where i used to b...
the place where they are...
the place where my heart is...
i seek forgiveness frm those whu wished...
i paid a high price fr nt listening...
i want to pray...
pray tt they will do well...
imagine me without you...
the day will never b bright...
no one to talk to...
cux no one will understand...
lost... confused... my life...

Saturday, April 28, 2007

econs test

oh my god! had my econs lecture test todae. this seriously sucks man! i tink i m gonna fail my econs test! wen the teacher went like " u haf 5 mins left" i was still tinkin on how to ans the 2nd last ques! and the worse thing is tt i missed out on the part about e airline. till e veri last min! shit! damn screwed up.. wen some of us were commenting tt we didnt manage to finish.. some ppl went like " oh.. wen she said there is 5 min left. i m at my last question." c'mon lah~ wad r u tryin to sae? tt u r damn smarT? tt u r super fasT? tt u grasp ur econs theory so well tt u can apply it in a way tt others carnt? argh. screwed man... kind of haf a feeling tt i m lagging so much behind. haha.. its nt a real gd thing to b a lagger at times. LOL... but.. yea.. its worse to b a mugger.. like wad michael tay saes.. GET A LIFE MAN! seriously carnt stand certain ppl whu thinks tt tutorial questions are nt enuff?! wad the... wen i carnt even finish my tutorials. =.- i carnt imagine sitting right in front of a sea of words and kp writing non-stop. i seriously take my hats off to those whu can do tt!
yea. recently i was quite emo. ermx. but i dont show tt in sch.. do i? i tink i dont lah! haha. yea. shldnt let my emotions affect the others arnd me yea? everyone has the right to feel fresh and happy everydae! woots. anw. thought alot recently... like the ppl arnd me and stuffs. yea.. things changed ALOT! and.. ya.. kind of got to noe some ppl better and it proved my initial judgement wrong. hmm.. sometimes.. its realli hard to see the real character of a person until during certain events tt happen.. but yea.. like wad _________ ( oops.. forgot his name.. the guy in pa.. the one other than ivan?)sae during the game.. trust no one.. hah. how true huh? we shldnt like put our 100% trust on someone wen we dont realli noe them? cux.. u never noe, but u mite end up to b the one getting hurT?..
aRGh.. can ppl stop tt f up shit tt nj is a mugger college? c'mon lah. tink for urself.. i tink tt ur college is worse than ours! STUDYING IN THE LIBRARY DURING BREAKS WHEN WE DONT! whu is the real mugger than? if u r saein tt jux bcux u r unable to get into nj.. stop being tt naive man! until u realli experience what it is to be a njcian. stop all those bullshit! cux.. mayb.. u r nt fit to sae anithing!
ooo.. met yinghao on the bus todae. hahs. kind of recall wad use to happen in class back in pri sch daes. oh mans.. seriously miss them lots... i tink i m pretty much blessed with real cool classmates throughout my education.. like.. i dont realli get ppl whu r NERDS.. MUGGERS... yeah.. ppl arnd me r damn cool and.. they rock my life. hahs. yinghao said tt we shall haf a outing soon! yeah~ tink so too.. shall strt working on a suitable date. haha!.. this is making me feel excited.. lol.. [sounds familiar huh?]:)
heh! someone still owes me a 500 words entry.. haha! this is a gentle reminder for u man! see. i haf updated my blog. mayb its time for u to update urs! :) my 500 words! go man! all e best k? heeehes.





oh! and hugh grant was sued for assualt! heard tt on 987..

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

tink too much?


tink too much? or otherwisE?

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

i seriously cant understand the change in e environment... is it me? or is it... some of the others.. whu realli changed... i haf practically no idea whats gng on.. jux felt lost... in this vast forest.. in search for the route to a brighter tomorrow... there is a feeling.. that some trees haf kinda drifted apart frm the lonely soul within this forest... sometimes.. it does gif a sense of being left out.. in some point of time.. the lonely soul tried to drag e tree back.. but nth seems to work.. as days passed... it seemed tt the connection between the soul and the tree has completely broken.. shall i put all these in the name of stress? that some r jux too stressed out by jc life.. so arnt behaving tt much like in the past... i dunno.. or is it me.. whu changed?... i heard frequent comments tt i seriously think too much into things at times... but mayb tts wad my character is.. a thinking person... i jux cant stop thinking tt i did sth wrong.. but.. i never knew wad it is.. can someone jux enlighten me? jux like the game we played on e bus todae.. if u guys dun gif me the ans.. or even the hints.. i will take years.. or even never be able to noe the answer.. if i realli did sth to cause the trees to go.. i m sorry.. will u pls come back? to make this forest complete.. to make the soul feel the warmth...








i m so sry.. but i seriously hope u guys wld stop saying things tt will cause a strain in relationship.. yeah.. it mite seem realli funny wen it is said once or twice.. but wen it turns to bcome sth realli freq.. i dun tink its quite nice.. for me.. i dun mind what u guys haf to sae.. but u never noe for e other party.. i haf repeated myself for quite some time tt the other party seems to haf grown more sensitive towards certain topic and we shldnt sae anithing to cause unneccesary misunderstandings and unhappinness yea? mayb i think too much.. but yeah.. as the saying goes " better b safe than sorry".. so ya.. plae safe man.. the exp i had dating back to sec1 is enuff.. i dun wish for another one.. i hope u guys wld understand y i m tt sensitive towards the topic strting wif an f.. :)

Monday, April 16, 2007

life

recently, i haf been to a handful of blogs, reading through each and every paragraph which painted the feelings of the author... being in a totally new environment.. some of us found ourselves to be unable to adapt to the new surrounding.. some of us dislike the fact tt we arnt able to get into the sch tt we yearned fr.. some of us dislike the sch tt we r in.. some of us dislike e people whu r arnd us.. lots of complains are available within a click on e mouse... mayb.. its fate tt brought us to where we r.. whether we like it or nt.. we r here now.. and it is a fact tt can never b changed.. back in e past.. i used to complain abt anithing and everythin abt e sch.. saeing how i hated it etc.. however.. thinking back.. i realise how naive i was.. whats the pt of complaining? the noise created can never help u change the fact... rather than complaining.. why nt try to love the sch, love the people, love the surroundings.. c'mon man! this is where u will spent ur whole 2 years in.. why bother making life difficult for urself? the choice is urs to make.. its ur 2 years in there.. and it is u.. whu is gng to decide whether it is gonna b a fulfiling 2 years.. or 2 years whereby u accomplish nth, but mere complaining of how sucked up tt sch is..

think far.. think right..

Friday, April 13, 2007

friends

ARGH! 2007 isnt a good year mans..lotsa catching up to do.. wen u seriously haf no time and no energy to touch on.. PW seriously sucked up all my energy.. initially thought PW is kinda cool.. as in u get to research and stuff.. and get an excuse of meeting up wif ur frens yeA? an official excuse to like get out of e house or sth.. but seriously.. rnd 3 wks of PW has proved me totally wrong.. its like such a f-ed up subject that u can ever come across.. the very first thing -- PI.. thought hard for it.. wanting to put in the very best effort.. strived wif the grp to produce the best.. finished early.. handed in early.. thinking tt being the first to hand in, the teacher wld kinda look through our work more thouroughly.. in the end.. draft 1 came back totally clean.. wad was said is good and jux nd to add on and improve on it.. edited the work.. made it look neater.. handed in.. 2nd draft came back.. red marks all over.. and the onli comment " totally out of point.. re-do.. change topic".. that was the worse thing tt can ever happen.. after much hard work put into ur research and stuffs, tinking tt it is an improvement on the first draft... seriously pissed off..
rushed through my pi todae.. or shld i sae yesterdae since it is already 130... woo.. mind was completely blank.. got no idea what to do.. and it is at this pt of time whereby u realli get to see whu ur frenx reali are.. special thanks to kee ann.. for providing me wif the idea.. special thanks to kok hao.. for staying up late with me, guiding me through and editing my work.. special thanks to zong.. for helping me research on the founder of the opera tt i initially wanted to do on.. thanks guys... without u guys.. i realli dont noe how to survive through the nite.. ahahs.. mayb i wld still b searching through the net trying to find sth tt suits me.. u guys rocks!
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went to kap todae.. went to do econs esaay question 4(b ).. oh my god.. i carnt believe how much time we actualli spent of 3/5 of the essay... a freaking 5 hrs.. wen clara lee wanted us to try and finish it within 25 mins.. hahas.. lots of arguments was brought up while doin tt single question.. sometimes misleadin questions posted by our dearest tiffany.. but.. hmm.. its a rather fruitful dae.. cux we got to realli clarify most of our doubts! cool mans.. hahas. met weijian at kap.. hmm.. he is having his orientation now.. u will never believe what i see... someone with golden hair.. jux like jiro frm fahrenheit.. hahas.. hairstayle abit similar too.. thought tt he has turned more goodlooking.. but claims tiffany his face has grown bigger.. lols.. he seriously changed alot.. hahas.. the way he talks.. like.. wen did his voice bcome tt soft? aha.. anw.. shall wish him all the best in his pursuit of tourism management? ehs.. sth along tt line.. hahas.. jia youx man~

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

tired

oh my god.. i m super tired.. drank 3 packets of coffee.. and it carnt seem to kp me awake.. damn it.. i still haf phy chem and math tutorials to do!!! the worse part is.. i still haf to study those 3 topics on my own.. before i can do my tutorial. since it is not taught in acjc during first 3 mnths.. this is the very first time tt made me realise how important 3 mnths is.. missing 3 mnths in nj seriously make ur life like hell. cux wad is taught in nj is haven been covered by ac and the reverse is true for ac.. argh.. life seriously sucks now. u carnt seem to every catch up with time.. ur mind tells ur body tt u r physically and mentally tired.. but ur brain tells u that u haf to continue with ur work.. or else u wun b able to survive ur dae in tutorials tml.. what a life to lead man! shit. realise tt i haf pe tml. i shall faint during pe due to fatigue... =.-

Friday, March 30, 2007

stress

gosh~! stressful daes r here.. homeworks are strting to pile up.. u seem to have never ending things to do.. and the worse thing is u cannot seem to complete ur tutorials on time.. and e onli thing u can do is to make the teachers tink tt u did the tutorials wen u haf done nth.. GP todae is a disaster.. having not done ani of the work make ur heart beat a million times faster.. u never noe wen e teacher wld ask u to ans ani question.. the onli thing u can do is to sit there.. praying realli hard deep down inside.. praying tt she wun pick on you.. luckily.. she never did.. mayb cux i tried to ans some of her questions.. which is a pretty good strategy to avoid being called upon.. but towards e end of the lesson, she requested tt we hand in our homework.. e first reaction of all those on e same boat as me.. is to run out of e classroom wen the class is in a state of chaos.. woo~ luckily.. we managed to run away alive.. never wld i try this agn.. its too much for ur heart to take.. u never noe.. u might jux die in the middle of this process.. everything is jux so freaky..
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hais. i never knew if my transfer frm s11 to s12 is e right choice.. academic wise.. both r stream classes.. although mayb s11 has a highest l1r5 of 8 but s12 haf a highest l1r5 of 9.. people wise.. s11 seriously haf no guys i can b frenx wif except mayb eric.. but s12.. i haf kok kinphang n weijian.. however... in s12.. u seriously go thru so much stress... can u imagine tt even a small lecture test and u can c ppl staring into a ten years series?! its jux a lecture test.. which frederick neo didnt even study much.. yes.. he mite haf flipped thru e notes.. not in much detail.. needless to sae hogging on to a ten years series.. in tutorials.. u tend to realise tt u r e onli one wif tutorials undone.. wif stuffs tt u dunno.. all others seem to know anithing and everything under the sun.. all others seem to haf their tutorials done.. neatly printed on every single page of paper... or mayb.. they haf even completed tutorials tt r way ahead of time.. wen u.. and onli u.. haf done nth in the present.. neither in the past.. yeah.. stress is inevitable in the journey to aquiring good results.. but mayb.. sometimes its too much tt one can take.. how can ppl actually rush home straight after school.. not to do anithing.. but strt studying? get a life man~! fortunately.. there is stil shirlene kinphang tiff car wj kok whu share common thinking.. if nt.. how can u survivE?

saying the above.. some ignorant ppl will strt to sae stupid things again.. tt nj is a mugger institute where onli muggers exist.. c'mon~ grow up man.. stop generalising ppl.. a portion of e institute doesnt represent everyone.. dun tell me tt YOUR institute doesnt haf muggers.. if u tink so.. i tink its time to wake up frm ur dreams.. u r jux being naive enuff to tink tt a institute will not haf a single mugger.. its nt the institute tt determines one's life.. at least mine isnt.. if u r someone whu is so easily affected by ur surroundings.. being tt easily changed.. mayb tts ur incompetence and nt e fault of others...

Saturday, March 24, 2007

the duck story

Another version of the ugly duckling

Once upon a time, there lived a ugly duckling in a much protected duck family. Being the youngest in line, ugly duckling got almost everything he wanted. Ugly duckling never knew what it is like to be out alone in the forest. He never need to go out in search of food. Everything seemed to always be well prepared for him. As years passed, ugly duckling was forced to be independant. Ugly duckling met lots of frens in the forest. But never knew who was true to him. Ugly duckling got cheated a few times, but he didnt give up on life. He went on searching for a purpose in life. But ducks do get tired at times. Some point in time while roaming in the forest, he met a mushroom. Ugly duckling thought "heh! tt mushroom looks like a potential good fren! why not go forward and try it out?" Ugly duckling summoned all his courage and took the first step towards the potential friendship. Never did ugly duckling realise that he has overdone things at time. Ugly duckling didnt noe tt he has irritated mushroom and soon. The relationship turned sour. However, ugly duckling realised tt in his journey so far, he has met a rat who was true to him. In times wen ugly duckling is down, rat never fail to appear right in front of him, to console him, and gif him a piece of advise. On the journey through the forest, rat was no longer anywhere to be seen. But ugly duckling could always sense him.. Gaining enlightenment frm the rat in times of need. halfway through the journey, ugly duckling met with a difficult choice. whether to go for a competition held at the monkey's annual ms. animal competition. after much thinking, ugly duckling told himself " you can do it!". ugly duckling began to do research on the the competition, trying to perfect himself in anyway. But ugly duckling found that what he could do is limited. time flies. in no time, the day of competiton came. ugly duckling found himself trembling with fear. fearing tt all his efforts will go down to drain, fearing tt he will disappoint himself, and most importantly, ppl arnd him. ugly duckling took small careful steps, to the venue of competition. he focused well on everything to b learnt for the competition. he made full use of the time given. and he tried to perfect his skills. "wow! not bad! i m performing better than i tot i wld!" full of confidence, ugly duckling told himself, he can do it. "next up, we haf participant ugly duckling!" its ugly duckling's turn to challenge the participants. up on stage, ugly duckling saw the reflection of himself from the river. he looked up again and saw his frens, eager and waiting to see his performance. he looked at the judges. and wen the bell rang, signifying the strt of the competition, ugly duckling felt as if his brain was no longer with him. he has forgotten every single thing tt he has researched on, every single thing tt he has learned. Ugly duckling didnt noe why. He was never stressed by the many eyes staring. the only explanation was ugly duckling thought he was way too ugly as compared to the rest of the contestants. as expected, ugly duckling lost the competition. ugly duckling was very upset. ugly duckling felt tt he has let everyone down, let himself down and let all his past efforts go down to drain, jux because at the very last min, he lost all his confidence, seeing the many contestants together wif him. Ugly duckling regretted not giving his very best. but everything was just too late. no one came to console ugly duckling. but ugly duckling dreamt of rat again. in his dreams, rat tried to console ugly duckling, telling him tt he should move on. but nothing seems to get through. ugly duckling was too tired to tink. his brain was filled with the competition and could no longer fill in anymore stuffs. On his journey on, ugly duckling seemed so lost. when people called ugly duckling the very next morning, he took a long time to realise tt someone has been calling him. ugly duckling tried to hide away frm reality. in the nite, ugly duckling saw rat in his dreams. rat asked ugly duckling to not act happy wen he is sad, but be his true self. rat told ugly duckling tt he shld move on in life. not to brood over the past. ugly duckling wanted to sae alot to rat. but he seem to not be able to speak in the dream. ugly duckling jux wanna sae. he find no pt in showin he is sad cux no one wil care. this wil onli bring more gossips regarding ugly duckling. ugly duckling is afraid tt tis will affect his journey through the forest. ugly duckling needs time to get over some things. but seriously, ugly duckling can be unpractical at times, tinking of the impossibles. but, ugly duckling wanna thank rat and green bird. for being there wen he is in need of someone. at least ugly duckling no longer feel tt unwanted. at least ugly duckling noes tt someone still cares for this ugly soul. but will this ugly duckling ever turn to a swan? u never noe...........................

Monday, March 19, 2007

superstar

woohoo~! cool man! i wanna make one official announcement!!! HUI HUI HAS PASSED THE FIRST ROUND OF CAMPUS SUPERSTAR!!! CONGRATUALTIONS!!! woots.. cool man... was worry for her during her audition... its like darn lots of ppl taking part in the competition.. but she still managed to get in! she is realli good yeah?! And herE is the official rise of the ONE AND ONLY OFFICIAL FANCLUB OF HUI HUI! woots.! let me introduce u to the EXCO:
President : Rachel Chew

Vice President: Frederick Neo

Secretary : Lin Jia Teng

Treasurer : Loh WeiZong

Publicity : Chua Kee Ann


THE OFFICIAL FAN CLUB OF YANG HUI HUI HEREBY WISHES HER GOOD LUCK IN THE SUBSEQUENT COMPETITIONS! U CAN DO IT! AND U WILL ALWAYS B OUR CAMPUS SUPERSTAR!!!!!!! <3



P.S those interested in joining the official fan club, kindly sign up wif ani of the above EXCO members. all r welcomed! :)

Monday, March 05, 2007

kukup

wow. jux came back frm kukup trip yesterdae. haha.. pretty much overslept todae. so.. heck. jux pon sch.. LOL. anw. it was a fun 2 daes trip.. where u get to experience sth realli away frm city life... and u get to eat seafood every single meal without fail! COOL! tink i haf grown fatter aft tis trip. lol.. majonged like mad there... played till almost 5 in r morn.. aha.. sang ktv etc.. u can even fish if u wan to.. the best part is tt we get to play firecrackers agn! haha.. lauched a few "rockets".. super fun.. woohoo~




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putting up of firecrackers:)

my handsome cousin

Friday, March 02, 2007

founder's dae

todae marks the 121st founder's dae of ACS.. a realli cool dae where the whole of acjc, be it J1s or 2s get together wearing one common acjc uniform.. :) early in the morn went into the auditorium.. realised tt its a free sitting dae.. lol.. met maria and went all e way up to sit at the back of the Lt.. wen sarah joined us later.. we found tt there is practically no more seat left for her.. so they decided to squeeze into one chair... which is apparently not allowed.. but miraculously.. everyone else was caught except them.. lol.. the teachers are jux blind~ its so obvious and they carnt even see. until wen the service was about to strt. the idotic indian teacher came to sarah and maria asking "when haf u guys been sharing the seat? why didnt i see u jux now?" oh my god.. den her nagging continues lah.. such a bitch.. she is blind and yet she ask if they realli sat there right frm the strt.. wen she ask for a solution.. sarah told her tt we cld get an extra chair to put at the end of the row.. and she asked "where do u want to get the chairs?" lol.. noe wad? not long before.. she carried a chair into the LT for herself.. and now she is asking where to get the chair.. so dumb lah.. in e end she ask sarah to grab one frm the balcony.. but being nice. i went instead.. hehex.. ;P went to the balcony.. i felt like playin musical chairs with the teachers lah.. -.- everyone is desperate for one.. like.. u mux immediately grab one and go.. limited stocks available.. =.- so in the end. sat behing adeline and celestine.. talk some craps and jokes to bring us thru the rather long and dry prize presentation.. woots. not long aft. the whole thing ended.. went to look for 4H ppl at KAP at rnd 250? but they were super late.. reached onli at rnd 3+ .. met a few ppl.. shan mao jun yang eric.. boss zhuying fanbin and the other gal whom i dun rem her name.. aha.. gossip session wif 4H ppl. got to noe a little more.. haha.. quite fun.. settled my dinner out and we rushed home to watch hana kimi.. waha.. 3rd time watching tis ep.. hehes.. u never get tired of the show actually! cux its nice! woots..

Monday, February 26, 2007

1 person

As all 4Havocians shld haf known.. recently.. there is some discussion about certain topic of the klass. which supposedly haf strted way back in sec 3.. and tracking back.. it all strted wif one veri person.. initially.. i didnt much bother bout tis issue.. onli some casual talks wen meeting up with frens.. even till the very dae wen i see my name appear on a particular blog.. i did nth much abt it.. i admit tt i did get a little angry over tis matter.. did pour out my feelings to tiff kok and ka.. but i can assure u guys.. nth of such appeared aniwhere else.. in ani forms.. even to anione else.. i told myself tt.. never mind.. freedom of speech is wad is allowed in tis democratic country called singapore.. and we shld respect the existence of such a rule called freedom of speech.. so.. never mind about tt.. if it does makes someone happier by putting someone elses name up on her blog to comment about.. y not?
on 26/02/07.. someone smsed me... "hey! will u b pissed if someone went to ur blog to tag tt u sux and u are a sucker?" my very first thought was tt.. will someone of our age b so childish? but with a 2nd thought.. i thought.. y not? so out of curiosity.. i switched on my dearest com, into my beloved blog.. jux to see some stains on my veri tagboard.. it is at tis veri moment tt i tot.. mayb its time to comment a little of wad is said... and mayb gif a little piece of advise to some ppl whu r blinded to the reality of the world.. but before doing so.. i would like to extend my most sincere apology to xue weijian.. for not turning up on the dae of what is to him the most important reunion dinner.. i m here to apologise not bcux i did sth wrong.. but tt i failed to do the simplest favour for my dedicated friend.. but i hereby would like to sae i did not turn up not cux i didnt wan to.. but i knew i cant.. the fact tt i haf been out late for too mani daes tt week and tt an overnight stay out is something tt is not allowed in our family policy... i m sorry.. but remember.. if i were to turn up for ani upcoming outings of 2D.. it is not bcux of anione.. but u.. cux i know u r trying ur veri best to make the class come together and i promise.. i will try to..
Going back to the recent hot topic.. i seriously nd to sae.. i m nt someone whu knows how to sae no.. and weijian shld noe.. cux i didnt dare to sae no to him wen he asked if i m gng for the dinner.. but some other person whu called, made me said tt 2 letter word.. nt bcux of anithing.. but i seriously find no reason of being demanded to do something.. i believe in this democratic world of ours. we still have the most basic right to make our own decisions.. and whats more.. i owe u nothing.. so i doubt tt u have anithing to demand from me... if i m wrong.. i m sorry but to hereby seek ur forgiveness..
but i would like to appeal to u... to the point tt i seriously hope tt such a childish act will nt carry on.. and tt i wld not nd to type animore entries wif regards to such childish acts of urs... i hope u will understand tt there is no use comparing between 2 classes cux each of the classes haf their own positive and negative points.. and i strongly believe tt nothing in this world is perfect.. unless mayb u tink fairy tales do exist in real world.. the fact tt u may see one class better than the others is bcux u r blinded to the negative side of one but exposed to the negative side of the other.. positive points are much attainable frm the class of 4H and i see no reason whats more to demand.. if u would realise.. its onli u who is moaning and groaning.. and i can tell u.. there is no use in doing so.. i hope u can see the fact tt since others are okay and living on fine with current situation and u cant.. there shld b something tt lies wrong wif u.. and not the class.. i hope u can see tt it is easier for one person to change for the class than for the class to change for one person.. and seriously.. i dun find a necessity for the class to change into a desired outlook of urs... everyone in this world haf different expectations in life.. and we cant possibly satisfy everyone.. u mite sae tis is unfair.. but pls.. its time to tink back.. its time to grow up and graciously accept the fact tt nothing in this world is fair... there is no point moaning and groaning brooding over the past.. time ticks on even without u.. so it is at ur loss if u choose to stick to the fact tt the world shld put on the desired look of urs because.. tis will never happen.. i tink such complains about classes are jux a childish act tt ought to b changed.. haf u ever realise tt u r entitled to tis priviledge to complain abt tis class wif some ppl whu bothers to talk sense to u [which apparently didnt seem to get into ur head].. if tis were to happen in a company tt u r working for.. m i to assume tt u will do the same complaining through blogs and stuffs..? if ur answer is yes.. i m so sorry but u r nt fit to survive in the society and its time u tink bout ur future.. mayb try to dig up some money to set up a firm of urs in order for ppl to all abide to ur doings.. at tis pt of time.. i wld like to make clear a ting.. by saein all e above.. i dont mean 4H is wad u potrayed it to b.. a broken family with no unity. NO! and i make my stand clear tt if i were to see a single sentence related to tt.. i WILL NOT hesitate to smack u right in ur face to wake u up frm ur sweet dreams.. i hope u understand tt under singapore's law.. citizens haf the right to prosecute ppl for defamation and i tink by living in singapore, u too shld abide to the law..


DEFAMATION ACT
(CHAPTER 75)

Unintentional defamation.7. —(1) A person who has published words alleged to be defamatory of another person may, if he claims that the words were published by him innocently in relation to that other person, make an offer of amends under this section; and in any such case —
(a) if the offer is accepted by the party aggrieved and is duly performed, no proceedings for libel or slander shall be taken or continued by that party against the person making the offer in respect of the publication in question (but without prejudice to any cause of action against any other person jointly responsible for that publication);
(b) if the offer is not accepted by the party aggrieved, then, except as otherwise provided by this section, it shall be a defence, in any proceedings by him for libel or slander against the person making the offer in respect of the publication in question, to prove that the words complained of were published by the defendant or were published by the defendant innocently in relation to the plaintiff and that the offer was made as soon as practicable after the defendant received notice that they were or might be defamatory of the plaintiff, and has not been withdrawn.
(2) An offer of amends under this section must be expressed to be made for the purposes of this section, and must be accompanied by an affidavit specifying the facts relied upon by the person making it to show that the words in question were published by him innocently in relation to the party aggrieved; and for the purposes of a defence under subsection (1) (b) no evidence, other than evidence of facts specified in the affidavit, shall be admissible on behalf of that person to prove that the words were so published.
(3) An offer of amends under this section shall be understood to mean an offer —
(a) in any case, to publish or join in the publication of a suitable correction of the words complained of, and a sufficient apology to the party aggrieved in respect of those words;
(b) where copies of a document or record containing the said words have been distributed by or with the knowledge of the person making the offer, to take such steps as are reasonably practicable on his part for notifying persons to whom copies have been so distributed that the words are alleged to be defamatory of the party aggrieved.
(4) Where an offer of amends under this section is accepted by the party aggrieved —
(a) any question as to the steps to be taken in fulfilment of the offer as so accepted shall in default of agreement between the parties be referred to and determined by the High Court, whose decision shall be final;
(b) the power of the court to make orders as to costs in proceedings by the party aggrieved against the person making the offer in respect of the publication in question, or in proceedings in respect of the offer under paragraph (a), shall include power to order the payment by the person making the offer to the party aggrieved of costs on an indemnity basis and any expenses reasonably incurred or to be incurred by that party in consequence of the publication in question;
and if no such proceedings as aforesaid are taken, the High Court may, upon application made by the party aggrieved, make any such order for the payment of such costs and expenses as aforesaid as could be made in such proceedings.
(5) For the purposes of this section, words shall be treated as published by one person (referred to in this subsection as the publisher) innocently in relation to another person if and only if the following conditions are satisfied:
(a) that the publisher did not intend to publish them of and concerning that other person, and did not know of circumstances by virtue of which they might be understood to refer to him; or
(b) that the words were not defamatory on the face of them, and the publisher did not know of circumstances by virtue of which they might be understood to be defamatory of that other person;
and in either case that the publisher exercised all reasonable care in relation to the publication; and any reference in this subsection to the publisher shall be construed as including a reference to any servant or agent of his who was concerned with the contents of the publication.
(6) Subsection (1) (b) shall not apply in relation to the publication by any person of words of which he is not the author unless he proves that the words were written by the author without malice.
Justification.8. In an action for libel or slander in respect of words containing two or more distinct charges against the plaintiff, a defence of justification shall not fail by reason only that the truth of every charge is not proved if the words not proved to be true do not materially injure the plaintiff’s reputation having regard to the truth of the remaining charges.



if kok can get in y cant u? if fred can get in y cant u? if others can mix along well with the rest of the class.. y cant u? mayb its time to relfect upon urself.. if the above to u is not in the right tone.. i m so sorry but mayb my command of language doesnt suit u too.. n i m realli sorry for the fact tt i didnt put in more effort in perfecting my english writing skills... i seek ur forgiveness.. thank you

Friday, February 23, 2007

sad

mani things haf happened in this year of 2007.. it may onli b rnd 2 mnths.. but it is filled wif lotsa changes.. so mani tt.. sometimes we find it realli difficult to cope wif.. blog became the only medium whereby we can "talk" to.. the onli medium whereby we can let out wad is kept deep down in our heart.. running through each and every blog of the very special you.. it is nt difficult tt we tend to find ppl hurt in this very year.. the changes in schools.. do change alot in terms of relationship.. sometimes.. we found ourselves left out.. we found ourselves unwanted.. we found tt the very class tt use to lie in our hands.. is no longer here.. is longer it.. is longer in our hands.. we found tt the mani things tt each and everyone of us sae.. mite b so unfamiliar to others.. we found tt wad use to b a class of mani common things in hand has rather disappeared into thin air.. in this moment.. we despair.. cux we tink tt.. happy endings can onli happen in fairy tales.. but.. tink agn.. each and everyone of us r in it together.. we r not alone.. cux we r on this journey together.. mayb in times we feel neglected.. but we mux rem the others on this very journey did not do tt on purpose.. in times when we feel left out.. fill ourselves in.. we r not strangers.. we r one family.. a part of the family mite b too carried away by their own topic.. but never b afraid to shout out.. "hey! we r here!"... no one is to leave this family.. cux it is u, u, u, and u.. each and every unique u tt made up this family.. without even one of u.. this family no longer exist.. this spirit no longer lies.. this heart is no longer complete.. this world can no longer live.. we r humans.. not saints.. we r not perfect.. we r not flawless.. in times.. we do hurt ppl without realising tt.. but i believe tt no one did tt on purpose... i.. too alwaex hurt the very one person of this big family.. in the past.. i use to complain.. how much he hurt me.. how deeply wounded i m bcux of him.. i m nt saein all those r bullshit.. it realli did happen.. but the wound is alwaex sealed by one word of his.. the pain is alwaex eased by his very action.. he succeeded in healing me.. but i never did wen i hurt him... cux i didnt noe wad i can do.. i m a stupid and completely useless person.. who onli noes how to sae sorry.. but i noe he doesnt like ppl to kp apologising.. i tried to sae sorry onli once.. but i didnt noe wad else to sae or to do.. the very thought tt i would hurt him makes me retreat.. tis very personal experience of mine.. is here to tell those of u guys who felt chipped of this big piece of heart.. mayb sometimes.. u find tt a few ppl tried to care for u glueing u back to tt heart.. but tt doesnt mean the others dun care.. or the others are jux of opposite pole of urs.. tryin their very best to repel u off tt hear... NO! nt everyone is born to b able to express themselves as well as others do.. expressing themselves in relationships.. is a complete different thing as compared to chit chatting in daily life.. it is easy to talk.. but difficult to talk sense.. to retain this very relationship.. mayb this is the biggest challenge set forward for us humans.. its something tt we mux work hard to attain.. but rem.. everyone is trying their best to do so.. and if u can.. continue to do better.. if u cant.. try even harder.. it is not whether or not u can do it.. it is whether or not u wan to do it.. if u wan to do it.. i strongly believe everyone else can feel it.. and i do hope.. my efforts are felt.. and my word of apology gets across to tt someone in my life..

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