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mani things haf happened in this year of 2007.. it may onli b rnd 2 mnths.. but it is filled wif lotsa changes.. so mani tt.. sometimes we find it realli difficult to cope wif.. blog became the only medium whereby we can "talk" to.. the onli medium whereby we can let out wad is kept deep down in our heart.. running through each and every blog of the very special you.. it is nt difficult tt we tend to find ppl hurt in this very year.. the changes in schools.. do change alot in terms of relationship.. sometimes.. we found ourselves left out.. we found ourselves unwanted.. we found tt the very class tt use to lie in our hands.. is no longer here.. is longer it.. is longer in our hands.. we found tt the mani things tt each and everyone of us sae.. mite b so unfamiliar to others.. we found tt wad use to b a class of mani common things in hand has rather disappeared into thin air.. in this moment.. we despair.. cux we tink tt.. happy endings can onli happen in fairy tales.. but.. tink agn.. each and everyone of us r in it together.. we r not alone.. cux we r on this journey together.. mayb in times we feel neglected.. but we mux rem the others on this very journey did not do tt on purpose.. in times when we feel left out.. fill ourselves in.. we r not strangers.. we r one family.. a part of the family mite b too carried away by their own topic.. but never b afraid to shout out.. "hey! we r here!"... no one is to leave this family.. cux it is u, u, u, and u.. each and every unique u tt made up this family.. without even one of u.. this family no longer exist.. this spirit no longer lies.. this heart is no longer complete.. this world can no longer live.. we r humans.. not saints.. we r not perfect.. we r not flawless.. in times.. we do hurt ppl without realising tt.. but i believe tt no one did tt on purpose... i.. too alwaex hurt the very one person of this big family.. in the past.. i use to complain.. how much he hurt me.. how deeply wounded i m bcux of him.. i m nt saein all those r bullshit.. it realli did happen.. but the wound is alwaex sealed by one word of his.. the pain is alwaex eased by his very action.. he succeeded in healing me.. but i never did wen i hurt him... cux i didnt noe wad i can do.. i m a stupid and completely useless person.. who onli noes how to sae sorry.. but i noe he doesnt like ppl to kp apologising.. i tried to sae sorry onli once.. but i didnt noe wad else to sae or to do.. the very thought tt i would hurt him makes me retreat.. tis very personal experience of mine.. is here to tell those of u guys who felt chipped of this big piece of heart.. mayb sometimes.. u find tt a few ppl tried to care for u glueing u back to tt heart.. but tt doesnt mean the others dun care.. or the others are jux of opposite pole of urs.. tryin their very best to repel u off tt hear... NO! nt everyone is born to b able to express themselves as well as others do.. expressing themselves in relationships.. is a complete different thing as compared to chit chatting in daily life.. it is easy to talk.. but difficult to talk sense.. to retain this very relationship.. mayb this is the biggest challenge set forward for us humans.. its something tt we mux work hard to attain.. but rem.. everyone is trying their best to do so.. and if u can.. continue to do better.. if u cant.. try even harder.. it is not whether or not u can do it.. it is whether or not u wan to do it.. if u wan to do it.. i strongly believe everyone else can feel it.. and i do hope.. my efforts are felt.. and my word of apology gets across to tt someone in my life..

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