in memorial

"... "As long as you follow someone, you will forever be behind him.", I remember my first mentor telling me. But I soon realized that following someone than improving on it on your own terms wasn't even enough, because it was in someone else's initial direction.

Those that inspire us, who motivate us can be such strong reasons to be like, to follow. But I've learned to identify what makes them strong, learn and try to apply, but move on.

What speaks from yourself, can never be from another person. What impresses you can be the inspiration of another person, but what inspires you comes from moments, situations in life; its what makes you. Nothing like that can ever coincide perfectly with another human being. ..."
-reuben kee-


i've learned alot... recently, i've been following the news on the tragedy tt happened in Cambodia... one that resulted in us losing 5 promising young talented singaporeans... went online to read more... went to their blogs... and i've learned alot.. got inspired, and at the same time, got to see how useless i am... the fact tt i werent able to realise all those... the fact tt i have been living in my own world... in the past, i used to think i haf grown by alot, mentally, physically.. i thought i have matured and am ready to b an independent adult... but now, i realise i m terribly wrong. i am far frm a mature adult. i am still lying in a bed of roses, under the protection of my parents, away from danger, away from fear. i thought i perfectly mastered the art of treating people around me, of judging someone... but i realised i m totally wrong.. i arnt good at those... or should i say i failed in doing all those.. i realised that i have been hurting ppl arnd me... i realised tt i have been shattering people's deam due to my selfishness. how ignorant of me to b tinking tt i m alwaes right and ppl whu differ from my thinking are wrong... i should and i must... grow up... to learn to think right.. to treat ppl right.. to b someone selfness.. more importantly... learn to decide what is right... i have been wasting my time... wasting ppl's time... cux i have never put my heart and soul in anithing.. in the past, now... but not in the future.. i promise i will sort things out... b sure of what i want... going all out for it... not wasting animore time.. not wasting ani other ppl's time.. i promise..

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sad

Upon seeing the sms... i was totally shocked... one of the 5 who are missing is actually a nj teacher... i rushed to see the newspaper... and realised who he actually is...
hmm.. went to read on the articles reporting on their death etc. its pretty sad... though i dun realli noe tt teacher.. but as i read thru the article.. images of him in school keep flashin through my mind.. the unknown feeling of sadness filled my eyes wif tears..
how sad it is to have someone tt young to leave his family... how sad it is to see someone around u leaving u tt suddenly... is all these part and parcel of life?
such an incident made me think alot... thinking bout how short life mite b... thinking bout how unpredictable it mite b... u never get to know wad happens the next moment.. u never get to noe whu will leave u the very second later.. the feeling of losing.. is so much of a pain... how great will it b if we dont get to lose anithing in life.. yea.. i noe its totally impossible... but... i thought it mite b something realli nice if it ever happens?...
anws... yea.. frm such an unfortunate event.. mayb we get to learn... get to learn tt we mux treasure wad we have now?... or even learn to heed advices?... i dunno...

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i tried to... i tot i cld... i told myself to... but as every second passes by... the feeling got stronger... i dunno why... tt feeling... its uncontrollable... i hope... i wish... you will... i dunno why it is so sudden... it jus so happen... argh~!

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bdae

oh my gosh~ oh my gosh~ i tink i haf gained like 17000000kg after 2 daes~ ahas. all thnx to sisters: esther anita frens:yilun keeann weizong bryan simin katrina weiting tiffany weijian shalene hilda kokhao for buying me cakes~ haha... they are damn nice thou~ realli enjoyed them!!! haha.. but i guess tis contradicts wif my resolution... diaos.. hahah...

to sisterssssssssssssssssss:

thanks!!!! thanks for tt splendid dinner!!! haha.. SWEnSEns ROCKS! haha. even haf free ice-cream fr bdae peeps... yea.. so wen its ur turn, rem to visit them.. XD wow.. free ad huh? yep! thnx sis! dinner was great.. but i bet i caused u great bucks.. oops.. haha... bet u need to fast for the next few months.. diaos.. lols..

yep! and thanks 2nd sis for tt great mp4 player!!! love it lots.. damn cool.. haha. it is like super cool tgt wif tt speaker! rocks man!!! thanks!!! but it cost alot too.. haha.. so u shall fast too.. LOL!!!!

to keeann weizong bryan simin katrina weiting tiffany weijian:

thanks guys! a real big thank you man! haha... seriously didnt expect so many of u to appear right outside mos burger.. damn shocked~ so.. kinda nearly cried.. haha.. but strong frederick manage to hold back all those tears.. :) yep! haha. real touched~ the loud bdae song which attracted much attention inside and outside of mos burger.. haha.. thank you~

hmm. the beary bank and tt mug is super duper ultra cute~ haha. as cute as me.. so suits me alot. LOL!!! hahahs.. hope me yilun and keeann can realli save up wif tt bear... i shall strt saving now~ woohoo!!! XD on a saving frenzy. diaos... yep! thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yea.. and keeann~ u made a realli nice poem... haha.. lol.. mayb can make into a song huh? i shall try... :) hahas.. thnx... damn nice! touched touched~

wow! wad a touching 16th nov...

oooo... do u tink such touchin events end un jus a dae? haha. nope!!! i was quite surprised tooo... XD

to tiffany weijian shalene hilda kokhao jianhong:

wooo... the mv rocks.. haha.. cux its my song~ hahaha.. no lahs.. its realli damn nice... hmm.. for those whu went kbox.. yep.. i haf a realli big smile on.. but i m touched to tears deep in... haha.. didnt expect u guys to spend so much tym on tis.. yea.. haha.. 4 daes rite? near full daes somemore.. stayed up till like 1/2 am? haha. thnx man! nice video.. hope i can post tt on blog thou.. so yea~ send me send me~ ahah. mux share gd stuff wif everyone! ahahs. yea~ and looking forward to the "Fahrenheit" Mv tt u guys made~ haha...

ooo... haha.. and needa help tiff and weijian clarify stuff.. on 16th nov.. they didnt stay for the celebration cux they rushed off to shalene's hse to do some touchin up for the video.. omg~ realli touched to hear tt.. haha.. and they stayed up once agn to send the video or sth~ haha.. u guys realli did alot..

haha.. but made me (such a poor boy) spend 15.50 bucks on kbox.. LOL.. haha.. but nevertheless... ITS TOTALLY WORTH IT!~ thanks guys!!!!

to theng tat:

hahaa.. thanks for ur bdae prezzie!!! haha.. i can fulfil my resolution wif tt.. appear wif cool hairstyles everydae!!! thanks!!!

yep! so a touching 17th nov!!!!

haha.. bet lotsa u r damn jealous rite? wad a fortunate guy i m.. to haf celebrations over 2 daes.. kinda like chinese new year.. haha.. jus tt mine is like bout 7 times less~ LOL.. yea.. but.. tis is the BEST bdae i haf ever had in 16 years of my life... thank you guys.. realli dunno wad to sae except for a big thank you!!! but hope u guys can feel that tearing heart of mine.. haha.. nt bcux i m sad.. but tt i m realli touched...

ooo.. yea.. jo! thanks for remembering my bdae aft like 5 years? wow... thanks man!


haha.. yea.. b4 i forget~ pls send me photos guys~ haha... i hope to post all the photos tgt wif the photo of my prezzies like real soon~ wanna show off my great frens and great prezzies.. I GONNA MAKE THE WHOLE WORLD JEALOUS!!! hahaha...


THANK YOU GUYS!!! LOVE YA LOTS!!!





ooo.. yea.. b4 i forget.. haha.. by popular demand.. i mite reveal tiffany and jiawei's faces... LOL... if i manage to get like 20 request through the tagboard? haha... i shall reveal their faces.. hahahahahahhahahaha... hhuuhuhuhuhuhuhu~ lol...

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HAPPY BIRTHDAE TO ME!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME~

HAHA.. so pathetic rite? wishing myself happy birthdae. diaos... woots. thnx for all those whu actualli remembered... realli touched.. hmm.. haha.. thank you man! esp hilda for tt super long message.. haha!! thnx peeps!.. a brand new start of my 17th year... yesh! i will heed ur advice and try nt to b emo for tis 17th year~ but.. kinda hate this number.. makes me feel so old~ haha. time flies~ ok.. shall nt continue jus in case my emo self appears agn.. LOL hmm..

17th year resolution!
1) i shall start eating less and slim dwn!
2) i shall start exercising regularly!
3) i shall start studying hard!
4) i shall use less of the com!
5) i shall cut dwn on my monthly sms!
6) i shall do all my hw on time!
7) i shall b less emo!
8) i shall stay happy as far as possible!
9) i shall control my temper!
10) i shall learn to tink less!
11) i shall learn to b less crazy!
12) i shall b more serious!
13) i shall make more new friends!
14) i shall go for wad i wan!
15) i shall love the ppl arnd me more!
16) i shall treasure wad i haf and nt let ani slip away!
17) i shall treat myself better and love myself more!!! hahas!

woohoo~ 17 resolutions on my 17th bdae! hahaa. cool man! hopefully i can fulfill all those man~! GO GO GO!!!




17th year wish list!!!
1) new MP3
2) PSP
3) new Handphone
4) new figure ( ahahaha.. craps... )
5) new handsome face (hahaha... whu wanna sponsor me for a plastic surgery? LOL!!! craps..)



woohoo~ hope i can save enuff money for the first 3? haha.. but kinda impossible cux i m a poor boy~ haha.. the last 2 shall appear in my dreams~~~ lol!!!








THANKS MUM! WOOTS. thanks for tt lovely birthdae cake~ and those pizzas~ woooooo.. tink i haf gained another 17kg~ hahaha... oh no~~~ fat fat me is here agn~~~ *shoo fats~ shoo~~ shoo~~~* lol.. k. kinda crazy.. hmm.. but i guess its kinda better than emo? hehes.. a pretty gd start huh? :P




wishing me all the best for this 17th year ahead!!! best of luck Frederick!





*mmmm.. yum yum~*

wen my wishes are lighted~

woohoo~ pizza + cheese sticks!~

wanna haf a bite??

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sick

hais~ haf been falling sick lately... hmm.. mite b due to the poor weather tis month i guesS? hopefully i can recover soon? hahas..

i thought alot but i realised none.. i wish i will soon to come...

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chalet!

wooohooo~! jus came back frm chalet (5-7 nov)... damn cool to haf the first chalet wif s12.. hmm.. the fun aside, this amazing exp shocked me wif ppl sleeping so much and so early.. hahas. anw~ had quite some bit of fun at the chalet... even our dearest ct came and even played truth or dare wif us!! wahaha! went out for midnight trail at pasir ris park... hahs. it was said tt i will scare ppl through the walk.. but.. hmm.. i realli didnt realise tt. hehes. but.. the walk was quite fun.. talking.. and even played at the playground~ hmm... rent a bike the veri nxt dae.. and i wanna sae sorry to kin phang~ haha. made a abrupt turn and end up crashing into his bike.. luckily he was nt injured.. but i m... hah. poor me.. but thanks to kp for trying veri hard to lift such a heavy load up.. haha. thanks to his try tt soften the impact of my fall i guess. hehes. free gym training lehs. nt bad. LOL. anw. it was kinphang's 17 bdae on 7th nov! haha. so actualli bought a cake and celebrated wif him.. he said he was moved to tears but tried hard to prevent himself frm crying~ haha... hmmm.. hehes. yep! so some picturesssss for u guys! ooo. and tiffany is kinda crazy over hotcakes.. =.O diaos~










woots. and my new hockey stick!

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new song!

wahaha! i promised them a song. tadah! here it comes... hmm.. but the sound quality dunno y bcome weird weird de...



credits to weijian for making it into a video clip? haha. lols. hope tiffany and jiawei like it.. XD

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crazy ppl

a bunch of crazy ppl~ hahahaha!!! tot carline wanna 保持形象？

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