a week

Gosh! i can't believe that its already thursday of the second week of the june holidays. time really flies. looking back this 2 weeks of hols, i realise that i seriously didnt do much. life is kinda routine, eat, sleep, com, trng, my 2 weeks passed just like that. sometimes, i really think that i have a serious problem in managing my time, so much so that i felt like i am totally wasting my life away. ha. maybe thats another of my "thinking too much", but i really felt that way. time and again, i told myself to maximise my time, to do work, to at least do something meaningful, so that at the end of the day, i feel a sense of accomplishment. however, the com always comes into the picture and ruin everything. ha. maybe thats just the poor discipline on my part. lols. hmm. maybe i should start doing something to this and lead my life in a more meaningful way. hahs.
2 weeks into the hols, i really felt a sense of relieve. maybe its due to me not meeting much people in these 2 weeks, so nothing much really happened. hahs. but thats a good thing though, it serves as a really good break for me. i am serious. meeting people makes me think alot. u can call me being over-sensitive, but every action really brings me into alot of thinking. hahas. maybe thats just me, but rest assured, i will not let my feelings take over me.:) i do alot of thinking, but i will know how to filter the bad from the good. hahas. but seriously, these 2 weeks brought me to cool down alot. i didnt think tht much, cause there is nothing much to think about, but it brought me to look back. and i realised alot of things. hahs. but i shldnt say what. lols. hmm.. but i guess. i would change when term starts, hopefully?
anws, having been a goalie in match makes me realise alot. i realise that no matter how sad u might be, no matter how emo u might get, no matter how depressed u can land, u must pick yourself up really fast. its kinda a mind over heart thing. as in when a ball gets shot into the goal, you really feel useless not being able to get the ball hell outta the goal, but there is no time for you to feel all those shit but actually tell yourself "thats the maximum they can get. no more can they achieve.", and you have to be back in your position again, giving ur 110% protecting the goal as if they are your child in trouble. hahas. but its really stressful man, sometimes you know you have to do it, but you just fail to do so. or maybe its just me.
i know you guys are just consoling me, but i know i didnt do well. i know you guys think i am rather good because i am kinda new to it but i know there is not much time left for me to excel. but i am thankful for all the encouragement that i needed. and i swear to do well. and i swear to crush those numbers down!

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