forget

i am in a total lost now...
did all i could to distract myself...
played drum game...
swept the floor...
mopped the floor...
watched anime...
slept throughout the day...
drank...
but i just couldnt get myself away from this sadness...
indeed...
lotsa things happened over the weekend...
i wanted to confide...
but i realised i couldnt...
my heart is contracting every minute...
every second...
now i see the true me within...
i convinced myself that i understood...
every single thing that i have been thinking about...
but i realised understanding and accepting is totally different...
switching off my phone...
i told myself...
its time to close myself up...
maybe...
somehow...
if its not meant to be...
it will never be...
some may think that this post is about a single thing...
but i can assure u its not...
its more than that...
the sadness within...
shall be locked up...
now i truely understand how naive i have been...
i thought that i have found the one...
but its all just a dream...

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