i don't know why, but there seems to be this sudden sadness rushing through my blood. its running through each and every part of my body, affecting me so much. on this hot monday afternoon, i was done with packing up the mess after common test. while sitting down and staring out of the window, memories of the past seems to come back all at once. i dont know why i still haven got over it after one year. mayb, humans just won't get satisfied with what they have. i know i shouldn't feel this way, as in, we should treasure what we have now and not take things for granted right? but tt feeling seems to be stucked with me that deeply. i just couldnt get over it. why?! its a year boy. its a year. i began to feel really lost. i must say, each and every stage of our life is so very different. each and every school is so different. each and every culture is so different. i hate changes, i hate having to adapt to a totally new environment, a totally new culture, and i really carn't. its almost 2 years, but i know that i have yet to get used to life here. its so different... the people here, the culture here, its very different. indeed, there is no point in looking back, no point in hoping the current situation will change, cause it will not. i just have to tell myself that i might just be better off than some other people out there, i should be satisfied with what i have. but sometimes, i really carn't. how ironic huh? mayb i m jus someone totally noob at persuasion? yea. mayb thats it. sometimes, i really don't know what i have done wrong. why am i the one who is always picked on? am i really that irritating and incorrigible? the stare... i tried to get use to it. cause sometimes i seriously don't find the reason in doing everything that people tell me to.i have my own feelings, my own thinking, and i believe in doing what i think is right and not what people think is right. furthermore, why has it always got to do with me? yea. maybe i am just the worse of all, thats why. ha. i should have known it huh? i am just hated. sometimes i really hope people can remove their mask. if u really hate someone, can you say that straight in their face? don't leave them guessing please... its so hard to... i hate it when people flare up for no reason and we have to please them when we might not even be in the wrong. do you do the same to me when i am angry or sad? no. back to point one, i am just hated. sometimes, i just feel as if i am drifting away. time and again, i have to tell myself... "bear with it boy, bear with it. whats the point of getting angry or emo? no one will know it, no one can understand, no one to talk to. so why not burry it deep in your heart. it will soon be over." i know i can do it. i will try to. its such a terrible feeling when you wanna shout, but there is no one to hear you. missing the past but i know it will never return.
5 handsome boys
4 crazy gals
wheeesss!
omg. i look weird
water ballet?!
WOW! handsome jianhong! cool specs!
SPLASH!!!!
YO! to me and weijian.lol.
poor jiawei suffering beside shirlene.. ahha!
me in tiffany's fav pose and weijian trying to learn from my sec1/2 photo
the poor chair cracked all thanks to tiffany's ass
under the sun~
