total madness

Today is a real crazy day. it felt kinda short though? Mayb its just because tml is labour dae, so time seems to fly... Faster than the speed of light! ahahs. had house session after normal school lessons. Hahas.. the 5 crazy gals went total insane during house session, but its kinda fun thou. cheered our lungs out and got crazy over that new "soooo" cheer... hahs. but its pretty embarrassing cux apparently no one responded to our cheer.. hahs. but its still fun~ proves that we are enthusiastic yeah? its a total let down today. initially i thought it is like labour day tml and we can finally get to enjoy ourselves with a day out~ sadly, some still had cca... so my dae ended with surfing the net at hm.. kinda pathetic~ urgh~ getting busier and busier each day. and common test is freaking coming in 2 wks time... and guess wad? i haven prepared a single shit, nt even catching up with my tutorials. gosh. i m gng insane!!! SAVE ME!!!

ooo.. and todae i asked sk [oops.. this looks like sukiat but it isnt... lol..] if he is wif pink bag.. but he denied. innocent frederick believed him but someone told me this " who would ever sae yes if u ask straight in their face if they are attached?" after much thought, frederick decides to believe wad someone saes... hahas. so is he with pink bag? further investigations shall be done. k.. i m being lame once again. and gosh.. apart from that.. i tink tt g______ rumour is getting a little out of hand. i tink some ppl actualli tinks that i m seriously in love with her. tts totally insane.. i shall clarify that it is a STRAIGHT NO... i dun mind it being a joke since i do spread rumours too [tsk tsk... naughty fred (lol.. quoted from sk)] but.. yea... dun take it seriously. hahs. and for some ppl. dun misunderstand~ :)

JIAN HONG IS A TOTAL PRO STALKER! HATS OFF MAN! YOU TOTALLY IMPRESSED ME WITH YOUR SKILLS. THUMBS UP JIANHONG! (did huijun fall in love with you bcux u understand her well? lol.. jkjk...)

hmm... went to a few blogs todae cux i got kinda bored. after 3 daes of turmoil in skl. gosh~ my brain juice is totally extracted so much so tt nt a single drop is left~ or mayb like wad jianhong saes... i m just stupid... its kinda hard to accept this statement though.. sob sob... k.. back to the point. anw. went to a few blogs. and i realised each blog is realli unique and u get to learn things from some too..! ahahs. about how ppl gets emo and overcome their sadness.. and how friendship really comes into play in life. this brought me to reflect my doings of the past month. seriously, i have never knew whether my every choice was right. the only thing i did was to convince myself that no matter what i do, i will and shall never regret. i know the feeling isnt the same as my secondary school daes whereby i realli haf someone whom i cld realli empty my heart to... totally pour out my feelings, worries and confusion. this kind of person has yet to appear in my JC life. mayb he/she will never appear since my JC life is ending kinda soon.. hais. but still.. its pretty sad. it just feels like u r alone in the desert, without any moral support. and i realised in this particular year, i got kinda "degraded"? gosh... comments are getting from bad to worse all thanks to kinphang and his totally mean comments. hahs.. but i believe and choose to believe that he didnt mean it... but still, its totally mean. ahas. mayb its just my retribution for being mean to some other ppl? but am i tt bad? lols. tell me~ so tt i can change for the better.. :P

i realised that i shouldnt trust ppl that much. after coming to nj, i got to learn that ppl arnt tt innocent as i used to think. ppl arnt that harmless as i used to tink. its totally disgusting? i hate living in such an environment where u seriously need to doubt the actions of every single person around u. a smile to you might just be filled with evil thoughts? backstabbers sucks! [this is just a general comment lest ppl strt asking me who i m refering to...] hais.. anw. i seriously hope tt nj's environment wld change for the better. i noe it will b the case wen i step out into the society. mayb its just me and i shld learn to adapt to this.. but filtering every word and thinking into every action is just too tiring a lifestyle for me.

i arnt a vulgur person ok? its just tt some ppl are that childish and insensitive that lead to me being that agitated. i shall apologise if tt brought much disturbance to some~ anw... i tink i will jus die some dae cux of kinphang jiawei and jianhong~ i will jus happen to vomit out blood some dae and jus die in class.

treasure your friends before they go
listen to them and not say no
encourage them when they are low
shelter them in times of snow
for you never know, you never know,
how it would feel without your soul -- DEAD

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