long time no blog

its been a long time since i last blogged. haha. its kinda a busy schedule since school reopened.. lotsa catching up to do and lotsa trainings to be done cux floorball nationals is finally here. after months and months of training, the long awaited match is finally here. i seriously hope and want to win this match, and i believe as long as we strive on, we will be able to do it! GO NJ! hmm... anws, i shall start some narration of history. XD

21st June 2008
tts sis's birthday! 20th birthdae. held a chalet at pasir ris coasta sands and seriously spent a good time there with cousins, bbqing, arcading, strolling, escaping and stuff. its been a long time since i enjoyed myself this much. yelled all my stress out with tt inverter ride, let down all my burdens with the pirate ship, chased off all worries with daytona. its really a relaxing chalet. haha. had loads of fun and i bet my sis had her most memorable birthdae there. its a pity that theres school on monday, or else i wld haf been able to spend another nite there! cheers chalet. u rocked my life cousins. :P

23rd June 2008
the worse nightmare ever... got back the results for the various subs and i can just say its horrendous. i scored like shit! i think i m totally stupid and dumb and yea, mayb lotsa ppl out there think so too. a stupid guy in the streamed class huh. how ironic can that be. hmm.. but i dont know why but i seriously cant get myself into some serious studying and mayb thats why its time for some serious reflection. hmm. i hope that i can recover my scores. send my subs to clinics.. hopefully the scores will soar to greater heights. lol

03 July 2008
sent some ppl this mex. abit lame. but hope its encouraging. haha
LETS FLOORBALL!
Fight like a warrior
Lead in the score
Observe like an eagle
Own to the core
Run like a cheeta
Beat them real sore
Aim like a marksman
Learn to be strong
Lash them all out like never before!
GO NJ!

hmm.. but i guess my poem onli manage to work for the first half of the match. we owned to the core by leadin with a 1-0 then a 2-1. mayb lady luck refuses to come to us which led to errors, to mistakes, to a stupid goal by frederick. i sincerely apologise although many said it wasn't my fault. but mayb if i did like wad song gee said, mayb if i didnt move, mayb if i jus sat on it, it wldnt haf happened. lots of maybes and regrets, but i swear to turn my regrets into my fighting spirit for the next match, getting back what we have lost, advance as we deserve! and i hereby pray, pray on behalf of the whole team that we will do well in the next match.
anws, it was a realli exciting match. learned alot from it. learnt to pick myself up wen i fall, learn to cheer ppl on cux i felt so veri encouraged wen i had a tap on my helmet, wen i had the veri "go frederick", wen i had the veri " you did well"... maybe... sometimes they are just words of consolation... but the veri encouragement brought to me move on. i mite haf done well... but i must say its all because of you guys that i can perform. without you guys, i wil still be someone who just stays there, emoing as shots get into my goal. its your cheer which brought strength after strength that pulled me through. thank you. throughout the match, i prayed really hard... i prayed that we will win,i prayed that no matter what sacrifices that i mite haf to make, i hope that we will win... but mayb i wasnt sincere enough... which led to a final score of 2-6... yes. we have lost. we have lost to rj, my ankle seems to worsen, shiliang bled from the nudge, louis fell from the trip, many of us got hurt... but i guess... mayb this is what makes us grow to be a better person, stronger than before, more ready to take on each and every opponent, to bring glory to the team. it mite be a 2-6, but it isnt anithing! its just a stepping stone towards success!!! we shall play our best for the next match!
i wanna end off with a quote:
"the win or lose we will forget... its the team that will always stay in our mind... it is us perspiring together, it is us soaring towards the same goal that will leave its footprints forever till the dae we die..."

24th June 2008
went for the Gals' friendly todae... it was a realli breathtaking match. there were moments when my heart totally went on a standstill. hahs. but i guess they did pretty well? especially the goalies... sometimes i seriously hope tt my throws can be as good as theirs... but now, i dont hope. i will. i promise to. i hope i can. bestow me strength to do well... i shall not let down. :)

went to the hospital in the nite, to visit my uncle. i saw a rather old man there, who got seriously hurt after a fall... he was complaining that he havent had food but onli medicine... but the reason was that he couldnt eat due to his current condition. he complained that there is no one around... simply cux he felt alone... he kept swearing and cursing.. and it turned up to be so cute that everyone laughed... dad went over to take a look at him... and he finally lied down... his eyes... filled with sadness.. or m i jus tinking too much... i just wanna say, its just so scary to be alone. if u wld ask me, i guess lonliness is the most scary thing on earth. to have no one who care for u, to haf no one taking a slightest glance at you, to haf ppl totally ignoring u wen u r down. its jus so sad...


i look.
i wonder.
am i?
i dun understand.
it feels different from time to time.
which is the real one?
is it meant to b?
or is it jus normal?
i wonder.










人生中，走得多，看得多，
似乎想的也会渐渐增加了吧？
就像乌鸦虽丑，却有着一棵孝心，
我们往往也不能以貌取人吧？
就像披着羊皮的狼，
我们往往不能轻易相信别人吧?
以往的我，单纯的相信，
只要诚恳待人，只要我对他人好，
只要我相信，只要我坚持，
一定会感动到人。。。
以往的我，愚蠢的认为，愚蠢的相信，
我很会看透人心。。。
但今日今时的我，承认我错了。。
我看走了眼。。。
以往的以为，化成如今残酷的事实。。。
以往的相信，化成如今的痛心。。。
或许有时真不因该立即下判断。。。
或许真的是希望越高失望越大。。。
或许算命是真地说准了我人生。。。
许多的疑惑，令我感叹人生的苦。。。
许多的或许，令我发现了错误的存在。。。
许多的许多，让我了解了人性的可恶。。。
我很想相信。。。　
但一次又一次的事件，
让我了解了我并不了解，
让我看见了我并没看见，
让我体会到了我并没体会，
让我深知了我并不知道。。。
看懂一本书固然难，
但想看透人心之书，更是难上加难！
人心难测！！！

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