lost

i feel really lost...
lost for words, lost for sense of direction in life....
i don't know what i'm doing...
neither do i know what i should do...
i don't understand how you feel...
and i guess i'm only guessing my way through everyday..
i realli wanna strt doing something....
but nothing seems to start at all..
looking through blogs,
some caused me to tear...
mayb its the sadness within....
mayb its just me...
i dont' know...


in terms of my own life,
i think im really very screwed up...
i am not doing what i want to...
i am not even doing what i should...
everyone has woken up from their dreams...
and im still trapped within...
i think i suck in life...
cux i dun even noe how to handle my own time...
i tink i suck in life...
cux i cant even control what i want...
i need a tight slap...
to remind me im still alive...
to remind me there is still a life for me to lead...
sometimes i realli wonder...
why is your life taken away when u cherish it that much...
but if u dont, you get to live that long?
how ironic can that b?
is it just trying to tell us that we arn't suppose to cherish things that much?
does that mean people who can't be bothered with anything gets EVERYTHING?
i really don't understand...
we are all humans...
humans get tired...
once, twice thrice.... i did it more than that...
but its alwaes the same...
im like on a rollar coaster ride.. sometimes brought to the peak...
at the next moment all the way to the ground...
what am i supposed to do?
persist?
does that really help?
is it because its me?
tts y its happening this way?
i think i might just be the lousiest person in this world...
thats why such happen to me?
giving is to not expect returnS? HA!
what a joke huh? who can do that?
i sometimes wonder if its worth it...
at times i am realli tired...
not just cause of this...
mani other things...
a joke it might seems...
but it just hurt so deeply...
alone it might seems...
but loneliness is just so scary...
who can feel it for me?
who can save me from it?
noone i guess...
no one...
cux no one cares... no one bothers...
who will care... for such lousy person?
yea. a waste of resources~ indeed.









sometimes i think a little more
hoping that i can understnad whats within
sometimes i take a little step
making an advancement it may seems
but careful steps arn't careful
thinking more is just sinful
for getting hurt is me
for causing hurt is you
i wonder what im doing
i wonder if im right
i wonder whats next
i wonder if im well-liked
i wonder what ur thinking
i wonder what i am like
i wonder if im just random
just another passerby.

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